Forbidden Whispers

Fuck

2004-07-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

Pardon me if the contents of this post is explicit..

What motherfucking news is dat? What the fuck? Who keeps spreading fucking blatant lies about me? Serious bullshit coming out of the horse's ass! Aper sak! Kimek!

Got problem cakap ngan aku ah face to face..Cant believe i trusted your little sore ass! Biatch! Asshole!

You'll get it from me!

My Natural Hairy Legs

2004-07-22T13:08:00.000+08:00

In the same bloody boring ECID lecture now..Yadda yadda yadda..Dimuthu kees crapping as usual..

She didnt come today..Guess she was sick from all the swimming yesterday..Told ya not to go swimming..Anyway, Nad..so what does this mean? Can I see Mr & Mrs Barry walking down the streets of canteen 1 pretty soon? :)

Have not seen any of them today..*sad* Haha..You know, I dreamt of the guys from RTC yesterday..pretty scary huh? No, nothing happened just that I remebered asking them their height and curfew..Heesh..Tu ah Qin, gian sangat kan? Im kinda liking them already..Used to it so its nice right? We will be able to be more producive from now on..

Raihan keeps bugging me for an MMS picture of me..Kia kia kia..yep, I now on a bloody pic of him..Haha..She said he's kinda cute..Yeah, the huggy bear type..I don't know lar..Sometimes, people can be seen as too desperate to be in this kind of things..Why not let nature takes its course?

You know right on Saturday I was supposed to work for Mitsubishi hp road show? Wah liew..KNS man..Ask me go Ang Mo Kio and find that bloody 727 block by myself..like WTF? As if I biaser pergi sana..Dah la jauh lak tu, tempat pon pat ulu ulu..If i get lost nanti macam mana? Even though he increased my wages to $8/h pon I refused..C'mon la, dont tell me you sanggup go there, in an alien area wearing a bloody short red mini dress with some transparent area on the stomach showing off my haireeee legs..Kia kia kia..No comission some more..But kinda regretting it now sia..Nevermind, should call him and ask if he still wants me.. :)

My natural brown ass part 1

2004-07-21T15:54:00.000+08:00

Everybody's been screaming at me to update..So here goes..Waiting for her and her and him to finish their ECID tutorial..See, what a kind soul I am..Even though I finished an hr early I still wait for them..Hahaha..

Well, I helped him to choose a new skin..See nice or not? Though it's a bit too girly but hey not all things are meant for girls right? Heesh..hated my SS workshop today..Like wtf? I don't even know what that woman wants..She talks as though we are some smart assess..Like how the hell do I use the Linux? What is Redhat? Fark..Then some more her voice super soft and she sure has some pronounciation problems..Heez..But at least I got to see someone I didnt expect tosee though he caught me in a an embarassing situation..*blush*I sat at the back of the lab..Having stomach ache so I was kinda of rocking to and fro with my natural brown ass jutting out..I saw some shadow so I turned behind and yep he saw me! he was peeping into our class la then I saw him and my smile was kinda frozen..he smiled and waved so I was like gritting my teeth trying to smile back at him with the pain still going oh so strong..

She's out ler..Got to go!!

Just passing the time...

2004-07-16T11:30:00.000+08:00

Blogger changed its layout again right? Hmm..Nice~!! Kewl!!I can change colors but the font still scuks though..

Ya..wondering why am I up and about at this early hour? Well, i nearly forgot to post up my reflection for Yuana so before i forget or she screams her head off at me, i managed to post it just in time.. hehe..Yuana, it's all there..Might not be relevant but yah, try to find ways you can use my reflection la..

Well, going to school at 2..need to take casette from him and pay him for the IEF notes and the tape..Well, i do not take IEF but hey, i can still learn IEF as general knowledge rite? see, im such a changed lady..so hardworking..yeah right..Oh well..Nothing much to update..

Mite be meeting her today..she wants to get shoes..Heez..Im just freaking out here..Tomorrow will be the deciding day..La la la..And should I go to Seoul Garden this Sunday??

Wear pink on Wednesday..

2004-07-15T13:34:00.000+08:00

In ECID lecture..so boring~! Nobody is paying attention..Well except for Peter, Yuana, Maziah and others who got nothing to do..Heez..Im so sleepy..Been deprived of sleep lately..

Whats after today? Friday..What's after Friday? Saturday!! Dammit man..Time pass so fast..Ive been feeling jittery from Monday..Prob because the day is coming..Its nearin!! Less than 48 hrs doks!! Okies okies..Chill Syiqin..All will be well..

Spiderman power!! Yoo hoo..Nearly cried watching it..NEARLY..Unlike someone who was sobbing uncontrollably beside me!! haha..Wah..didnt know you are emo too huh?? Kia kia..No la..not laughing at you..

Watched Mean Girls with her yesterday..Haha..Wouldn't mind watching it again..Actually could have watched it on VCD but her VCD ah spoil sey..Masok kat player jer buat kecoh.. Aiyor..But seres ah..It was worth well the money..You know the part where Cady and whats his name were about to kiss (when he offered to teach her maths)..I still remember that part..When they kissed, someone in the front row actuall shouted YES!! Na-ah..Not kidding you..Everybody in the theatre laughed..Heez man..I loike the audience there.. So responsive..

Afterwards, had dinner at a vegetarian restaurant..Haha..Who knows me probably knows that i'm lying but we are not going to tell you what we ate..*guilty* FOOD = FATS..Then wanted to get girly shoes but somehow its all so expensive..Sad man..

Ooh..That Muthu guy just said "That's the end of the LEcture" so I guess its goodbye for now..I think i will update later..until ten..toodles!!

I'll always be this way..

2004-07-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

Not feeling too good..Been doing some reflections and thinking..I just cant believe that's a lot in life that I took for granted..My freedom, family, friends, food, money, clothes..You know, one small mistake can cost you it all..Ive opened my eyes, my heart, my mind and the beauty of the world marred by the brutalness of human behavior..We are not perfect, but hey at least we're trying aren't we?

I can feel my depression mode seeping in..These panic attacks come frequently..Its hard just to keep the smile and be postive..Need some time alone..Its getting harder to switch personalities..You may know me as the bright cheerful and crazy ass girl but somehow I feel thats not the real me..Who am I really? Am I what I see in the mirror? Or is that just a mirage of expectations..Im trying to keep part of me sane..Holding on to some parts of me..Reality dont always meet expectations and you dont always get what you want..Im just soo tired of this game..Feeling the weight on my chest and the numbness inside makes me just want to curl up and cry..I dont know what's happening to me nor the reason for my vulnerability..Bear with me..Try to understand and see what others fail to see..

Hey wpt..Just need to say this to you..I feel that we're slowly drifting apart..Can you feel it too? The comfortness and ease of being together, its not the same anymore.. We are still trying and I do hope we keep on trying..But I dont know why..I really dont.. Its been 2 weeks since we've really talked..I mean really talked.. We have our own lives now..Its hard for us to really bond and be the crazy bad ass double Qinz again..I guess we just have to make do with what we have huh? Maybe Im too needy..Im insecure..Though Ive never really thought myself as a needy person or someone who shows her vulnerabilities..Maybe Im changing and my minds not right..Forgive me if you think its all crap..Wishing you all the best..Its just the weather..Hopefully..

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

I`ll always remember you :)::

Thanks Guys..Love y'all lotsa!!

2004-07-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

So pissed off..Dunno why the background never appear though in preview mode can see.. I just love the background but why doesnt it show?? It means I need to change skin AGAIN!! My sis is talking to Syawal!! Yes I know her ex boyfriend..Later I tell Abg Naz!!

Anyway, just got back from meeting the gang..Had dinner at Pizzahut..And I ate so much!! Im so going to fast tomorrow!! Im taking the measurements for my baju kebaya and later the seamstress say I fat!! Played a dumb game called 'Guess the number'.. But I sure missed the crew.. Kian is so thin man..Well he was thin in the first place so not much difference lar..Pang as always on a major diet (trying to attract the girl of his dreams!) Meiqi, Jaco, Chee Leong, Timmy, Fab, PP, Wawa, Ver, Pang, Kian and me had so much catching up to do..Then after that, they wanted to catch a movie, Spiderman but I cannot watch lar..Hahaha..*hint hint* Then decided to go KTV.. I know, me going to KTV? Haha..Ma virgin visit..Later I sing ah, the whole building collapse..That point of time, PP, Tim, Jaco and Fab left leaving the seven of us..The place we went too, all the rooms are booked until 11 and it was quite late (mind you, I have a curfew!) so decided to chill at Spinelli..Drank caramel something..Heez..

Pp was really depressed today..I am not really sure why but his mood get to me..I felt sad too..Thinking that hey this time I am really separated from those who made my life worthwhile..My friends..My wampatan, my boo and those who made me what I am today..Thanks guys for a wonderful evening..I cant imagine how it will be when I graduate..I wont be seeing Fab and Jaco and Tim and Pang as they're going for 6 months attachment..Sianz..And I sure will miss him..

Im going to Changi Prison tomorrow..Yep its tomorrow..Need to have a lookey lookey on the place to get a better insight..About what? Well, im taking an elective called Work Integrated Learning (WIL). I, plus other 9 students will be teaching some reformees IT knowledge..Its a tough but I think great module but it takes a lot of preparation, committment and sacrifices to make it a worthwhile journey..You know I have to wear polo tee tomorrow and shoes!! I hate wearing shoes! And I have to buy polo tees form Hang Ten just for tomorrow..Cannot wear skirt or sandals..Haha..Must protect ourselves form unwanted attention..There are only 2 guys in my WIL class..Poor Daniel and Cliff..We are depending on you to protect us!Wanted to buy girly shoes but no time ah..So late and the shops are closing down..

I went to the IEF lect today..My god..Boo, your Miss Koh is sure damn sarcastic ah? Saw a new cute nad young lecturer in the lift..Really handsome man..Liyi, Po Ling, Nadiah and me were practically drooling over him..Who is he? Well..More about it tomorrow..So tired already..need to wake up at 6!! Journey to Tanah Merah long you know!! Meeting Liyi at 7.45 at Lakeside coz meeting the rest at 9 sharp at Tanah Merah so yah..More tomorrow..

Toodles!! Nitez..Or should I say Morning Doks!!

Flat = Pian

2004-07-07T17:16:00.000+08:00

Heez..Tried to have a quick nap but cannot la..My 2 aunts came over and their voice very loud..Now eating mee hongkong and pedas man!! I think Mummy put in a whole bottle of pepper..Since like that, I just work on my blog lar..

As you can read from my boo's blog..we went out yesterday so I no need to elaborate la.. Just fill in some things she never put..I SAW ISA!! Yes yes all..Wah duh wah duh.. Walks like a model man! Like the upper body not moving at all..I actually forced her to cross over just to walk near him..Kia kia kia..Like I have a crush on him like that..

1 funny or should I say gross thing happened..We were walking towards Somerset Mrt Station walking towards the traffic light front of Heeren when this old ang moh (my dad's age??) with grey hair said to me, "Hey Babe~"..I was like stunned..So I turned behind to look at him and he was grinning at me..Hahaha..Wow..so I do attract older men huh?

Anzhel today asked me all those bad words sia..Malay ah..Crazy girl..Make me laugh till my stomach hurts! She embarassed me in the canteen..You all know about Terrance rite? We dont know that it was his name but we just named him Terrance..Thr is a reason why but luper..Then saw him at canteen and I said to Nadia, "Tu Terrance!" and Anzhel go shout "Terrance?!?!" And Terrance turned!! And looked at us..So now we know that that is his name no thanks to Anzhel..Later he thinks I like him..And I think so..I have to hide my face now..We were not laughing but shrieking adding to the already noisy canteen.. And she stepped on my toes..By using the legs of the chair!! Pain sia~!!

Her godbrothers are a crazy bunch too!! Especially Simon..Funny man!! Ni de pian pian ler.. Kia kia kia..Wo men de lau she de chiou hen da li!!

Today my SS quite fun..Managed to plant a Trojan in the computer..Of course a harmless one la..But its so fun pretending to be a hacker..Serious man, with a simple program you can actually find out the person's passwords and make that victim die of frustration!! hehe..How about it? Syiqin, future hacker?? I want to donate blood..Anyone wants to go with me??

He's looking at me..Not You...

2004-07-05T16:37:00.000+08:00

Saw my boo's new layout..Haha..Beyongsey? Now seeing her use the Beyonce's skin makes me wanna reuse my old red hot Beyonce..But I loike this skin better..Just that the picture dont appear!! *Bangs head*

Just got back from Geylang with me mum..Tak beli aper2..Just walk walk waste time..Coz go Mendaki collect ma cheque..There was this cute guy also but dont know what school just that he's second year..On the way to Mendaki ah, we take cab to 51 Kee Sun Ave..Its a kinda remote place so no bus go there, if got also I dont know la what bus..So this cab driver dont know the way tau..If dunno say dunno la..Ask us to take another cab..He still want to search the directory la and we're already running late..The lunch hr kol 12 and it's already 11.35 am..He took like dunno, 15 mins just to read the directory and keep telling us, "Never mind never mind..I find for you." Like duh..He also want to give us discount some more that accumulate to like wat, 30 cts? I just kept quiet la..My mum was the one grumbling..Eh bus now still got the one orange color ah? Not TIBS you know..Orange one and the fare is 65 cts..

Then ate at the Bedok Interchange there..I had soto ayam which I couldnt finish and this teh ah..I wondered why the teh taste quite sweet in a weird way and I asked me mum what it is..And she told me its susu powder..Eeww..I dah la tak minum susu, and they have to use susu powder like baby ones!! I forced myself to finish it anyway..Tak baik buang buang rezeki..

Geylang today not much la..Still the same things..And I was so sad that the baju kurung I wanted no have my size..*sobs* No not telling you what size I wear but most prob the ones who know me should know la what size right? *winks* Did I tell you that time my parents went to kampong Jawa, they bought something funny? My mum thought its the keras-keras thing that people put at the langsir..The white white ones but after she bought it, she realized it was toilet paper!! Yes, now my house is filled with big ROLLS of toilet paper the one we use in school..Dont know how we are going to finish it..Maklom la, kitaorg kan cebok..Anyone wants to buy from me? $3 per roll!! Next week might be going again to tempah baju..My theme this year is GREEN!! What about you all? Who wants to sepasang with me? *tak tau malu*

Den when want to go home, (we took 30) we sat at the back secretly eating jackfruit.. Yummy..Then when it reached Harbour Front, this 2 ang mohs board it..They were around my age, prob a bit older..They were firends but 1 sat at the front talking to someone else and the other sat beside me..Not physically but the seat beside me..Connfusing? Yeah.. Anyways, he had a booming voice and I couldnt sleep at all..So I justlistened to his conversation with the person he was talking to..I think he was kind of a missionary.. I dont know, he was talking about churches, GOD, the places he'd been to like Malaysia, Hong Kong and China..His church if Im not wrong got other branches too and 1 of them is in Pasir Panjang..Neways, from the start of his 'journey', he kept giving me sidelong glances..Of course la I pretended not to notice..Paisey wat..Then when he said he'd been to Malysia, he said "Apa Khabar" to me..I was so suprised that I just smiled and blushed. I know. BLUSHED?? I cant beleive it that I didnt reply something witty but blushed like a young schoolgirl..Ok la, Im young and Im a schoolgirl..His voice woke me mum up and he asked again Apa Khabar and my mum ever the flirt replied back Baik..Then me mum asked, "Your Malay quite good ah," and he replied,"sikit-sikit jer.." Hahha.. My mum kep saying whenever she's with me people will rather look at her than me..Mummy dearest, FYI it was me he wants to talk to la..Just that I lazy to layan dia..Then when his stop came, he said, "Jumpa Lagi." Like I will see you again like that..*cross fingers*

Mum gave me a lecture about how to 'keep' your husband and jaga his heart..She says that there are certain things which we women should never tell our husbands i.e like all our exes but our husband must tell us about ALL of their exes..Haha..Said that ~~most~~all men are egoistics..My mum's mad! Do you know she actually rejected my dad's proposal of marriage 3 times in 6 years?? Terror ah my mum..And on their 1st date, she stood him up? My dad waited from 12 - 6 at the cinema..Haha..He was cursing my mum saying she was a jinx because he wore new clothes and jeans for the date and they got stolen the very next day when he hung it up after washing it..Heez..And still going on strong..23 years is a long time..I hope they can last till eternity..

Replies to Taggies:
PP & Anzhel: It was my sec sch friend who asked me out..He's younger by a year..
My Boo: Thr is a pic but it doesnt appear..Working on that!
Lina: Sure or not? hahaha...
Cico: Teros terang seram ah takot menyinggung perasaan dia..Haha..You know how guys are..

Might be going out wif Boo tomorrow..Must treat her mah coz she treat me last time.. Chicky chop ok with ya? *grins* Anyway..CONGRATULATIONS SHAH!!! he got 3rd at the bodybuilding competition..Not bad ah..1st time you know..I'll try to weasel a picture from him and post it up..Until then..Ta-ta..

Like Duh~

2004-07-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

As you can see..Im alwyas under construction but this time its for real.. Imma gonna complete this one..That is if I have the time and I figure how the codes work.. This codes are kinda messed up..So yah..Im still alive..Don go forgetting me aiite? Luv y'all dawgs..

P/s: I turned him down..Said I was going out..Well its true..Im going somewhere tomoro with me mum..Haha..*shivers*

Should I?

2004-07-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

He asked me out~*widens eyes* How how how? Should I or shouldnt I? I feel weird..Damn it.. I just feel weird you know..I mean I hardly know him..Ok lah, Ive known of his existence for 3 years but aiyor..How how how? I still havent replied him..Heez man.. If you're asking whether I like him, well darn it yeah as a BROTHER.. I dont even 'daydream' of him...Hahah..Help!! S.O.S.. Somebody help me!!!

2004-06-24T13:01:00.000+08:00

Just finish eating Long John's with Nurul

Who the fuck is Crappers? Dammit..I use BLOGPATROL also dont know how to find out who is who..Hahah..Ver is doing some keying for Clarence and me as usual dont have anything to do..Heez man..I think Ah Lan purposely coem back late so that I have to do scanning..Well no way man..I will be helping my Uncle Sim for data entry..

Well, Im counting the hours for tomorrow..Shit..My presentation is tomorrow and I cannot print out the slides because my printer is spoiled..Aiyor..Thinking of buying FERRERO ROCHER for the perm staff..Haha..Bryan gace me sweets and Im so happy!! Saw the cute bite neck guy and isnt Ver jealous of my luck?? :)

Later meeting her to pass her the digi cam..I havent buy batteries to replace leh..So sorry ok?? I give you some moolahs you buy yourself ok?? Hehe..Heez man..Dont really have anything to update but I just update for fun lor..Haha..Ok la..Need to give back the seats to Zhihao already..Hes chasing me away..

Until then.....

Fark it..Dont wnat you back!!

2004-06-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

Its been a while..Its been too long.. But what to do? Opportunities come and go, passing me by as time ticks away..Life is just a vessel but when the time comes, what about those unfufilled dreams and hopes? Being deceived and put down..All the faith you had are now someone else's ignition for revenge..Waiting for freedom..Waiting for the end..(In memory of the Korean guy who kena beheaded)Heez man~!!

Lets see..Well, it seems that Im going on a weekly basis now..Actually updated a few days back but there was something wrong with the server at my company so whatever shits Ive written so far is gone like the wind~!!

That Ah-Lan so called asked me out!! (Is Lion able to read this blog? Because if she is, then IM so not going to blog about what I want to blog) Haha..Ok..Lets talk about my uncle 1st..For some of you, you know that he was in an accident last week. Motorcycle.. Another reason for daddy to reject my appeal to take up bike..But he's discharged now, recuperating at home..His right hand, the fingers and bones are like totally crushed and is in a sling..They operated on him already..Thank GOD he still has the use of his legs because if he were to be bed ridden, it would have taken its toll on my poor aunt..But they havent operated on his nose because waiting for the swelling on his face to go down.. Its pretty scary doncha think? I saw him last week at the hospital and I couldnt recognize him..Its like bad but not bad.. HIs boss came to see him..Ian..Quite handsome and guess what? My mother flirted with him. Like FLIRTED. Kalahkan aku sey.. Haha.. Did you know that twice an ang moh guy came up and talked to me? If only they were around my age because they are like so in their 30s..I have a feeling that I attract the wrong kind of men..Remember the banglas and the policeman? *Groans*

Damn that Margin Bitch a.k.a Madam White Snake!! Go complain to my boss about us.. Its like we dont have anything to do ma..So is it wrong to read magazines? And you told lies about us too!! We are not under you so can you mind your own business or not? Fark man.. See little bit also wanna complain.. You yourself your department got probelm want to talk much..I so pity your husband..And I wasnt even involved!! Veron la!! *strangles* See la..Got a dirty mark on my perfect slate already..Think Bryan diappointed in me..Hahaha..Zhihao also..Betty on leave go crazy already with Lion..Stop flirting la..What about Candice? Heez man..I was just sitting there scanning with Ah Lan queitly joking and now this! 2 more days to go man..FREEDOM comes but its shortlived because school is so starting..Got new kids on the block..Haha..Cant believe it Im a 3rd year student..*claps* But Im so sad..I wont be with my faithful cronies anymore..I will be an alien in an alien class..So totally alone.. I need you guys man.. I am so MISSING you guys..Please miss me too..Im begging you..

Replies to taggies:

Boo: Bebey, so sorry..Haha..Will try to update frequently ok?

WPT: Do you have to put that in my tag? I wanna tag at his blog and he will know about his nick la!!

Cico: Send me to school!!

syiqin is cute and pretty..ver is better

2004-06-16T10:51:00.000+08:00

veron is invading..she loves to shit and burp~~~

Please ignore the crap Ver is talking..Shes just bored..Haha..Heez..Got sad news today.. My uncle kena accident..Yupz..This early morn..And this is what she told me:" He was hit by lampost. there nose fractured, face bside nose on the right, right hand on e palm and the tummy. tummy got black black. surgeons and plastic surgeons are seeing him." Word for word.. If you dont know what shes blabbing about, well neither do I..Hahahaha..

Oh, the new attachees right are from TP taking Biz IT too..Well, they are not so bad once you've spoken to them..Except that Ah-Lan is a bit 'soft' lah..More to the feminine side.. But hes OK..See the em[hasis on the CA{{ED wprd? Haha..I also dont know what im typing because I forgot what i want to blog about..La La La..Ryan is still recovering from fever which he inherited from Ver and Me..Hahaha..Poor him. NOT!!! CClarence is doing the SEDIA! SENANG DIRI! CEPAT JALAN! at camp right now..Reservist training for 1 week..u noe he kena fine fer his hair on the first day $50..so sad ar on the first day kena fine..kwo li is hungry..zhihao stonnin..i cannot find minghui..~~Veron is pretty and cute~~..I didnt SAY THAT!! Heez..

Ok la..Later after lunch I update more lah..Brain is totally empty like always..

Its a Monday!!

2004-06-14T13:13:00.000+08:00

Alooooooo!!! Its been a super super duper long long time since Ive blogged huh? Well, dont fret eses..Im still alive and kicking (unfortunately)..

Well, Ive been down with the damn fever the past days..It started with a sore throat on Tuesday, it got worse on Wednesday (Zhihao and Veron succumbed first..They left poor me all alone on that day) and it got even worse when I have a severe headache on Thursday.. I even finished the supply of tissue paper (1 whole box!!) in my row!! heez..I have to resort to 'stealing' tissue paper from the toilet..I took one whole roll and hit it under my sweater..Thank God ma sweater is huge..Shut up! I know its kinda gross but hey a girl's desperare right? I really cant take it on Friday..I couldnt even lift my head and thats the point I decided Im going to take the day off..There goes my aim to have a full attendance..And I have to cancel all my plans for the day! I was supposed to go out with the gang, Emily and Bebey but have some eprsonal stuff so i had to cancel all the plans..I know..The tune keeps coming to my head..So sad so sad its a sad sad situation...

So I went to the polyclinic..Near Bebey's house..Didnt see your Norzie there dog! Anyway, me head was like heavy and I waited 45 minutes to see the doctor..So pissed off! I know la got a lot of people but there are some sick people and there are some sick people.. The 1st thing the doctor asked was, "Do you smoke?" And i was thinking do i look like im a smoker?? Hahaha..My temperature was quite high..39.5C..See la..All because of someone's chocolates!! Aiyor..I didnt have any appetite that day and slept the whole day.. I have like 5 4 different kinds of pills to swallow..Not to mention the cough syrup..UUgghh..

Did I mention that I have some attachees, well 2 in fact under me right now? Lan and Lion..No kidding..Hey Im a tiger..Heez..Thast why I have so much time to update coz they seem to be having fun doing the stupid scanning thing..

*Oopss..Bryan's back from lunch..Gotta go..Will continue later~!!

The way Im feeling it Just Dont Feel Right......

2004-06-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

Making time to update before Friends starts..(isnt Tom Felton cute?)

Today was probably the most and I do mean it the most horriblest Monday ever..Im not the kind to be suffering from Monday blues but today was so lethargic that I wasnt my usual cheery stuff..I didnt laugh much today and that suprises me..Even 'he' said that since I got to know what my class for nest year, my whole personality changed. Im more depressed and not like usual..Heez..Is that so, peeps? Am I that low these days? I couldnt keep my eyes open, suffering from cramps and its just the feeling of being so insignificant in this world that you just seem so 'dead' to the world..Even she wasnt feeling great..I couldnt even finish my food though I was complaining of hunger, 3 pimples popped out (BIG UGLY ONES!!) and tears seem to fall as easy as they come and go..Babies were crying in the train..Hope tomorrow gets better..

I so dreamt of Aamir Khan, Luke and Mischa Barton this morning..Dont ask me what dream..I only know it was a sad dream..Heez..Maybe that was what influenced my mood today..Perhaps yes perhaps not..I just really cant stand being me anymore..I mean who am I? I cant seem to find the real me, deep inside..I mean theres so many mes that I dont know which is real and which is fake..Which me do I need to help me survive next year? All I know is not what it seems..Ive lost some important people just to achieve my dreams..So scared we'll drift apart..Though we may try hard to stick but hey who knows whats going to happen? Friends come and friends go, but the true ones stays but how true is that? Ive people who claim to be my real friends but they desert me when I need them the most..What will happen when we graduate? I will carve out a niche and so will you and where does our firendship lies? Ive got to stop thinking too far ahead of my intelligence and capabilities..

On a lighter note, yesterday I went to Johor for a wedding..I didnt know Malaysia also got mat tapereds..heez..Its so a faux passe trend..The food wasnt that great and there are like a zillion lalats everywhere..Try to fend them off but they keep coming back..We reached the place at around 1 pm and left at around 3..We went to Giant because my uncle wanted to do some serious toothbrush shopping..He has a cupboard full of toothbrushes..he changes his brush once a month..Well, its his grub not mine..We didnt buy anything at Giant except for an AYAT (4 Qul)..Quite cheap there..Then we headed down to Angsana where there are so many 'mats n minahs' hanging..Most of them are lke mat rockerz and one of them actually came up and try to like hit on me..I was accompanying my aunt to the toilet so it was only the 2 of us..The toilet dirty one so I waited outside and this 2 'mats' came and try to chat me up..I still shudder at that memory..Kalau handsome tak per..Masik kebudak-budakan..Heez..But there was this totally hot guy at one of the shops selling sneakers..Really!! Boo if you nampak, melt punya!! Too bad we didnt go inside the shop..There was this nice shoes that I was aiming for..RM19.90..pretty cheap right? I regretted not buying it at that moment.. Because on the 2nd floor also got some shoe shops so we decided to round-round 1st..In the end totally forgot to buy that shoes! ARggh!! Speaking of which, we came across a first hand experience of bribery or 'duit kopi'. We went to the Woodlands causeway and never in our life we were ever stopped by the officers there..We're still on Malaysia land..Oh, we rented a van by the way because there were 10 of us altogether minus my 2 morons and Faeez..They took the driver away for some 'questioning' and 1 of them got into the van and ask us some questions like are we renting the vehicle, how much did we pay the guy, did the driver get commission yadda yadda yadda to which my dad said that the driver was our relative's friend and is only ferrying us back and forth..Thank God the driver said the same and we didnt have to pay anything..I know it sounds confusing la and I myself dont understand it..Hmm..The officer who stamped my passport in Singapore is so *drools* handsome!! So young! Like just finish NS like that..My mom was like so drooling over him too..He was so 'shy' that he didnt 'see' my face to see whether Im a legal 'Syiqin' or not..haha..What if my face was different? Would you let me in boy? So tired..Didnt even watch my Jap drama..Anyone watched it yesterday? What telah happen?

My boo went threading!! On Saturday..Haha..Masik sakit tak? She was like sniffling and complaining it was painful..Heez..She soOOoo have low pain tolerance..Oh, when we were at Jurong East, nazty boarded the train. Yes the one and only Punk. Punk saw me (he looked cute) and tried to make eye contact but I action never see him..What do you expect me to do? For 4 years Ive never really spoken to him and you expect me to say hi? Punk was the one whom Hidayu slapped. Remember Girls?
Anyway, boo and I went to town. She made me walk all the way form PS to Far East!! My legs felt as though they were torn off!! But we had so much fun laughing and joking and trying to be kakak-kakak but you know us too well..The moment you put the B to the Boo, the whole world just disappear..Haha..Keep drinking Aloe Vera juice (healthy right?) and walking and laughing and keep touching up on our already so thick make-up..You know, when Im with my boo, I so totally become a bimbo..Never have I touched up so many times in my life..Shes totally in love with my Chanel lipgloss (I kop from her!!)..Took pictures in the toilet, MRT station and at Heereen with the balloon remember?? I was like given this blue balloon..I dont want to bring it home because later take train crowded..Then if explode I paisey..So I walked along and saw this angmoh boy eyeing my balloon..I was like you want? He turned and called his mom but she didnt hear and his elder sis didnt see me so she just dragged him and I 'chased' the boy to give the balloon..When the sister turned, shes the one who took the balloon from me and as I walked away I heard them fighting for possession of the balloon..Haha..I only had that balloon for 1 hr..Heez.. Lets do that some other time ok? Yes, I owe you a treat!

Not bad for a once a week update huh? Oh she's performing tomorrow at I dont know where.. haha..Lame lame lame..Will find out the location..Heez..I want to work in Mango..

Its Raining man!!

2004-06-05T11:09:00.000+08:00

Good Morning everybody!! The weathers looking kinda gloomy right now..Heez man..Keep raining these past few days huh? Oh well, its better than the humid weather before.. Yeay! Officially 3 more weeks to the end of the most sianest attachment!! Zhihao buay tahan already..Keep complaining he cannot take it..Haha..Exchange place with me la..Im willing to take over your job ler..But I know you wanna sit with the love of your life Betty right??

Met up with the homies yesterday..Yes me esses..Hahhaa..Chee Leong, Kian, Pang, Fab, Jaco, Peter, Rach and Nurul..Wah cow..Im so deperessed knowing that Chee Leong will be in T06 along with Meiqi..See? My dearest classmates got each other!! Emily got to be with her gal, Celeste..*bangs head* See la, who ask me to choose WIL (Work Intergrated Learning)? Though its kinda kewl but ah maybe they see my IT grades quite ok ah..So far all Bs but I have a confession to make la..Its him who helped me throughout the 'ride'.. Anyway, it was fun meeting you all although the bloody service at Settlers sucks..The food came like 2 hours later..You know ah..The charge there bloody expensive ah..1 table cost $12 and we had 2 tables..Though we waived off the 1st hr..I think ah they purposely make the food come late so we have to pay for the table fee..The food can like be prepared in less than 1/2 hour man..I just like the baked sotong..(is it sotong?) The palce there can play games and so we played uno stacko (CL, me, PP, Nurul n Wawa) and the other table played Jenga..Congrats to them for beating the record of 33 levels!!

So my relationship with that someone is on the healing process..made me realize how much I had missed her..

Ooh..Super funny news..Yesterday I was scanning the client forms ah..Then I came across this form..It says the name is Mrs Janet Jackson..Hahaha..Her occupation was something o do woth the entertainment industry and she's livig in USA..*hints hint* Haha..Maybe iths the Janet Jackson maybe it is not but the signature sure looks like the real Janet's signature man..Her annual income exceeds 500k and her net worth exceeds 900k..Or something like that..This woman ah, go copy all the particulars man..secretly duh..We're suppose to keep it confidential but we were thinking what the heck man..Just copy la!! Then she go search for other local celebrities but only managed to find *drumrolls* BENEDICT GOH!! Yes, the one and only boring pyramid host Benedict Goh..Saw all his particulars, phone numbers and stuff and of course she copied it down..Fun ah? Then we plan on Monday go search for more..

Tomorrow going to Johor..Got someone's engagement..Hmmphh..Hopefully they are not there..I cant stand of being nice and polite to them..I cant respect them not after what they did to my family..Especially my mom..I hate them soo much!!

Today meeting my boo to got Little India..Duh she wants to thread..Pain tau..Dont cry ok? But ah, We must search for the palce because as you all kow I have short term memory and Ive just been there once so I might not know exactly where the palce is..*heez* Then she wants to do some serious GSS shopping..I HAVENT GOT MY PAY!! So unfortunately for me I cant buy anything..Im so oh totally broke..Really am..Anyone wants to support me? Cheap only..$25 per hour..Haha..Gosh..Ooh and I saw Leon yesterday..haah..That ass dont want to take bus with me because I taking the bus..Humchimpeng~!!

Its a sad thing..Im in T08..You guys?

2004-06-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

Heez..I havent bathe..Now online in MSN talking to her and Raihan..No, my junior Raihan.. (Bapak dia Hussein Saaban)..Decided to take this opportunity to thank certain people who made my life possible..(getting teary-eyed)..

Wampatan: We're not in the smae class..They are so mean to seperate us..All these days and hours Ive known you, our friendship keeps getting better.. I mean Im so comfortable with you..I fart with you, burp with you, shit and dance and do all those crazy things with you..I can tell you anything..When I need some sarcasm and shit in my life, you can just make me go crazy..I will miss our 'challenge the eyelashes' contest and who can forget the pinkie test? All the gossips we had,our jokes, tears and laughters that we shared, they can never be replaced no matter who comes and go..You are by far the bestest 'chinese' friend I ever had..We clicked so well and isnt it a wonder we have the name Qin? From there, our friendship will be steadfast and strong..A true friend like you comes once in a while and Im not going to let that slip away again..Always in my heart..Love you girl..*rolls eyes*

Peter Paul: Fine la..Its my fault la..Haha..So sad we're not in the same class anymore.. Which means I have to g for lectures and be more hardworking and put in more effort in my studies and project..I passed all my modules becase of you and I tahnk you for that..Wothout you I dont think Im able to achieve the Bs that Ive attained in the last 3 semesters..Thank you very much for all those help you've given me..So I dont think I will be able to do as good as before in my new class..*hint* I need you to help me in my project..Let me stay in Pro..Let me be involved in your group..Help me please..Hints and all that..I know Im asking a tad too much..But Im desperate..Friends forever (God, doesnt that sound so lame?)Haha..You're a great friend too..Had a ball with you and though we're influencing you, we always have a great time..Will sure miss you..

Anzhel: Great! You're in my class! Love you lots! Lets be hardworking together ok? Gambatte-ne!! Lets get As!! Wait foe me to lose weight la..

Nadia: Hey sweetie..Looking forward to spend another semester with you..Keep those hazy memories of Sean and Terence warm and alive in our hearts..
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I got into WIL (work integrated learning)..Can go prison teach one!! Only 10 places for that elective and I got it!! So fun...But its every Friday from 4-6..Saper leh tahan? So far, I got 'kicked' out to class T08..Same with Anzhel and Nad.. Heez..Super sian..Though Monday is officially off for me!! Yaay!! But I will be so oh alone..Though she same class, not all class are taken together..This means I need to make new friends..I have a feeling I and Bam Bam same class..IS she nice? What about Babyboi? Anyway, guess what? Im So T-O-T-A-L-L-Y over that sonofabitch..Haha..Really.Maybe because of...

*check this blog out: Betty* Made for fun specailly for Zhihao..Hahaha..

Love me only when you want to, not because you need to..

Heez...

2004-06-03T13:32:00.000+08:00

Aww..wampatan..You actually dedicated a section just for me? Im really so touched..Heez.. I will sure miss you..I really will..Trust me on that..This 2 years we have been together are some of the best moments that could have happen to me..(No not lesbianism)..I wont say much now because Mr. Potato is beside me reading what I just wrote..Cant be really emotional la right now coz I still got work so when I reach home later tonight, will write a super entry just for you...

Hey peeps!! Anyone same class with me?? Im in T08 le!! Separated from her and him and her and him..Aiyor...Even Xiangwei in their class..But I same class with Nadia..Hehehe..lets drool over Sean together..

Me and my pouty lips!!

2004-05-31T20:18:00.000+08:00

Haiyor..Feel so bad lah..Heez..Ok ok..Heres what happened lar..Told you all that my liaison (pronounced as ly-ay-zon not lai-a-sen) officer was M-I-A for this whole 3 weeks right? Like he never replied to our emails or calls..Then I said la, he must be dead lar or he wont be missing..Then just now Mr. Ong Poh Leng (yes i still do have a crush on this botak guy!!) called Guo Li and said Mr Leslie Kwok has been hospitalized..And I was like !?!?..Heez..See la..Me and my big mouth..But to think about it? Its like a cloud with a silver lining right? Mr OPL is my LO now..hehehe..So happy..Like so fated huh?? Hahaha..Sorry Mr. Kwok..Will visit you if I want to next time..MEANO!!

Another shocking news..Heez..This one I really cannot 'telan' man..Guess who is Babyboi's ex-gal? Guess guess?? Its Mrs. Monkey God!! *silence* I know!! I was like what the f*ck? I really cant breathe when I eard it..All thanks to HER la..Make me go crazy..You should have told me before lunch time so I wouldnt have the mood to eat the bloody super big whopper today.. Still full le..Didnt eat dinner..Anyway, Mrs. Monkey God and her was talking about Babyboi and do you know that she and the tallest F4 dated once too? Yah I know..Super gross right? Is she that pretty? I do hope she wont get to read my entries..Heez..No wonder they hated her but why does the whole class hate her? So to her classmates, do tag me why you hate her ok? Those from T04 ones..And Mrs Monkey God says Babyboi goes for those loaded chicks with looks..Is she saying she's pretty? Heez..Made me think twice..Im so over him ok? Im waiting for Bryan now..*melts* He smells so good..Tall, big and sparkling eyes and a great smile (stable career!!) what more do you want? And that I-want-to-bite-your-neck guy..I was the last one to see him!! Dont be jealous ok Ver? You still have that Ryan whos made his feelings known already..Does Ryan reads my blog??

You know about the what shit dream capsule thingy at Raffles City Tower at the Esprit there? The one where 5 guys live for 2 weeks and people can see (like David Blaine)? Well, we went there to have a lookey lookey..Haha..And guessed I made myself known..I was wearing my silver Baju Kurung ( I know..I looked absolutely gorgeous today!!) Then one of guys living there mouthed "Selamat Pagi" (means Good Morning-mind you it was lunch time)to me..And I was like he was so looking at me!! And I just smiled and nodded my head.. He wasnt that handsome anyway..And I walked away then Ming Hui asked, "How come when you walk away his eyes follow you one?" I so paiseh ler..Then I looked at the kitchen and their bedroom area..Then the same guy again smiled at me and mouthed, "Apa khabar?" (how are you?) and gave me a thumbs up..Everyone looked at me!! Duh, I gave him a thumbs up back and i quickly walked away..Hahaha..Should I wear Baju Kurung tomorrow also? I should huh? Ive used up almost all of my 'casual' clothes..heez..Zhihao gal go back Australia already..Missing her ah? Thats why you came over to chitchat? Hahaha

I hate guys who are unfaithful..Especially those who are married. Yes Im talking about you, Ryan and 2 someone elses..When you marry somebody, all your love should be given to your spouse and commit yourself to her right? Where is the honour of your wedding vows when you start an affair or have one night stands? You even have a kid! Did you ever asked yourself how the kid would feel? Kau tu orang Islam..Kau lagi boleh buat hubungan maksiat, minum arak..Apa nak jadi? Tak takut dosa eh? Marriage is nothing but just an exchange of rings is it? Or just to have free sex whenever you like it? Im so shamed of you all..

*Replies to taggies* (Like follow honey ah?)

Bebey: Yes msg me tomorrow ok? We go eat mee pok!! Hahaha..Sorry couldnt do threading with you..Kita pergi another day ok? Promise!!

Wanek: Enlarge the fonts? You are really blind ah? Will do so sweets!!

Ver: Dunno true or not Damien got wife *sobs*

Anzhel: When are we meeting? Thnks for the compliments!!

Kaya: Hey butter!! Lama tak spam your taggie too!! Will do so!!

Wawa: Nah..Not that sad lar..Hahhaa..Just SHOCKED!!

Fiza: Kau nak aper berok?

And Again I Fell.....

2004-05-29T14:23:00.000+08:00

Isnt it funny how easy someone pretends to be someone they're not? Its like living in this make-up world and all the fake smiles just wear you off..People taking advantage of you..Thinking that you're this weak lame ass who lets people walk all over you..Well sorry missy..Im not kind of lady..Just because I smile and pretended its ok, doesnt mean you have the right to slap me round..Wake up..Im just biding my time..You wont like it when Im blown up and I assure you my plastic smile wont be intact and neither will be your face!

What a screwed up week man..Heez..Well, almost for me lah..Heez..Cant really remember what happened but ya I'll try to update you about my mundane life..biasak la..Not so free like someone who can blog EVERYDAY!! Heez..Counting the days..Still have roughly less than 4 weeks to go..

I so fell down again!! Again wearing the pair of heels..This time kat Causeway Library..Alamak..So malu man..And again in front of this group of malays.. (budak kecik2 jer)..Its not that I want to fall in front of them or what but man..Never ever and I mean never wearing that pair of jinxed heels again! Dont laugh la..Still got the scar on my left knee (fall on carpet still got scar?!?!)..Wont try to remember how I dod a little handbag swerve last 2 Mondays while wearing that heels..

Congrats FANTASIA!! See..told you all that she will win..I beleived in you all the way dawg..Dont worry Diana..Im sure you will make it too..Saw JPL and I thought hey he so reminds me of someone..*blush*

So want to know my results? Its ok la..Wasnt expected like my bloody Operations Management paper!! Im so sorry Mr. Lim..I really tried my best..

Basic Conversational Spanish: AD
Business Etiquette: B+
Network Server and Administration: B
Business System Design and Analysis: B
Internet programming Techniques: B+
Operations Management: B
Human Resource Management: C+

Amaciam? Ok or not? Im a qualified spanish speaking girl..Iker Casillas and JPL, here I come!! Hola!! Cant believe it I lost to her for OM..Heez..So sad so sad..Its a sad sad situation...

Went threading yesterday!! Sarkeeeet!! haha..Not that pain la..Its still thick though but cleared up..So bebey bila your turn? Meh ah..haha..I want to try the chicky chop too ah..

Been going for useless orientation these past 2 days..Like I know what they are talking about..Its like hello? I dont even have basic knowledge of selling shares and stock and here you are babbling about Mobile Sales System (MSF), Philip Cash Managemnt (PCM) and the list just goes on and on..And theres this one 'uncle' who is so rude that I feel like slapping hime..Go present la if you have so many comments..But in other words at least Im not stuck scanning all day long..I hate you RYAN!! Out to torture me right? Want me tp type in the names and ICs in the database..Do you know how many names are there in that databasa? Over 8k!! And how am I supposed to reach the target now?
Managed to dig some info of Zhihao's love life too..Haha..Hes not that 'quiet' a person as we thought.. hes a fun guy to hang out with la..Always cracking me up..Hes attached lar..To a girl named Sancia whos 1 yr older than him..You all ah..Stop making eye contact with Damian la..Later his wife come hentam me..Oh yah..I bet Clarence was meeting his gal yesterday..He like purposely pretended not to see me man..though we are standing less than 5 feet from each other..*slaps* I dont care if u have a gal or not la..

Chatting with Alfi now..Tawfiq got bike!! Woo hoo!! I nak naik!! Alfie also got bike.. irfan got car!!! Wow..I wanna tumpang man.. irfan..ya ya..The guy I 'slept' with during OBS..Not that kind of intimate sleeping la..You all ah..

I miss Uncle Sim...

2004-05-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

A bit pissed off..I just 'completed' my skin and I didnt save it yet..then when I wanted to save it, I 'accidently' pressed cancel all edits and poof! All the hard work is gone..So lazy to do a new one..Anyone willing to do one for me?

Today same things la..Lai Hock(My boss) says its not advisable to change the duties because very mafan for the perm staff to teach us new things..Must be that Betty la..Lazy to teach right? Uncle Sim didnt come today..Missed that cute uncle..Hes so adorable ler..He cant pronounced my name then he called me by my chinese name, Si Qin..heez..Its ok lar..Haha..At least Im using my chinese name and proud of it unlike someone!! Speaking of Uncle Sim, Bryan went to indonesia from last Thursday and resumed work on Monday..He asked Uncle Sim to distribute the keropok, the pisang kering (i dunnno the name) and this kerepek like sweet and bitter at the same time..It wasnt that great but you know what..People give so dont complain la..Then Bryan went to use the computer beside Betty..(Betty didnt know the keropoks were from Bryan) She tasted the keropok then said (in chinese), "Who give one? So not nice the taste." Bryan turned and said, "Its from me." Betty was so paisey man!! Haha..Then she tried to 'repair' the situation by trying the bittersweet ones and said ,"This one nice." Haha..Talk about tlaking behind people's back! Oh, this is courtesy of Mr. Potato. Guess who?? He looks like erm Lau Zi fu (is it?) Veron didnt come yesterday but I managed to reach 750!! pProud of myself..treated myself to Oreos..The chocolate ones..I know..Ive gained 1 kg since my attachment..Heez..Lai Hock asked us to attend orientation tomorrow..Dunno wnat to go or not..Its like 1 whole day man..But Ver dont want and me and Mr. Potato wants..

Will gossip about Ryan tomorrow..!!

Results out this Thursday,..Scarrie!! Dont know I can get the grades I wanted or not..Just scared all get Ds..I need to get straight Bs man..Oh, Daddy's sounding me to be a teacher..he really like from last time wants me to be a teacher..I thinking ah, maybe I can but the fees how? I still like got 2 morons to provide for..Need to get a job because when she's married, its up to me to provide the greens for surviaval..heez..so young and already Im troubled by financial woes..

Harry Potter opens next week!! Watching on FRIDAY!! Cant wait man!! Confirm a lot of kiddies watching it but I dont care!! I love Harry Potter!! Must book early early..Heez.. Anyway, i changed my phone to 3100..Heez..So sad..For 2 days I cant activate my MMS but now can after I called the helpdesk..I need ringtones..Anyone knows where to download free ringtones?

FOR TROY!

2004-05-22T14:12:00.000+08:00

I watched TROY!! MY GOD!! I have mixed reactions to the movie..I find it quite dragging but the action scenes(the war and the 'love' scenes included :)) were awesome..And Brad Pitt..*melts* His bod is G-O-R-G-E-O-U-S..Hes so tanned all over and well sclupted..During the scene whre he kissed Perseus, Peter said to me,"You must be thinking you are the girl." And I was like ya duh..I bet all the ladies in the house were having the same thoughts as me right? Jen is so lucky! But this movie kinda makes me 'hate' Orlando Bloom..Sissy asshole! The war started because of his raging hormones and he cant even complete his fight again wats-his-name and his brother Hector has to finish the fight for him..Like duh..what a sore ass..Hector's son i so cute..Too bad he died~There was one point when the camera focused on him and I just shouted asshole out loud..haha..yes you guessed it..Im one of those ugly movie-goers who talks in cinemas..im so sorry..I just cant help it..I'll try not to talk much..But yesterday Rachel and I was like giggling and ogling at their near naked bodies..Eric Bana is quite cute though..has that raw masculinity in him..I was yawning thoroughout the movie..

Heez..im so broke now!! Fucking cab driver..I should have taken the MRT home..Will reach around the same time and spent only $0.80 instead of $18!! Nope, not going to elaborate on that!!

Went out wtih Bebey on Thursday..Missed doing that huh? Still the same shits..I became a BIMBO whenever Im near her!! HELP!! Haha..we just walked around, people watching and saw the Anak Metropolitan guy..the one who became Adek la..Dunno whats his name..Not much of a supporter of Malay Dramas..But you know the IFA awards was like on Thursday right? haha..So many people were queing up to catch a glimpse of the stars..Barriers and policemen and flashes of lights went off and on..Feeling celebritish when we passed them..haahah..Action jer..

I snored in the MRT yesterday during my way to work~!! After I snored I just kept my eyes closed..So paisey ler..It was jam packed with people and I cant beleived I snored!!!!

Juz Scanning La...

2004-05-21T17:34:00.000+08:00

yes..finally Im using the Internet in the bloody cold office..So stupid of me because I have Internet connection for the past 4 hrs(Clarence computer-he on leave le) and I just decideed to blog now..pretty dumb hah? Ryans beside me, doing nothing as usual..Trying to look busy but in fact he has completed his job and Veron still stoning away scanning..Im unstapling and arranging dividers only today!! HAHA.. Coz on Monday, Wednesday and yesterday I did it all by myself ler..Heez..Dunno what to blog about..Got brainfreeze frm the cold here..

Lisa, Joanne, Candice, and the other girls must be having a blast in Hong Kong right now le..So good ah..They have a holiday and yet Im still stuck doing attachment,s>s..,br>
So excited about later..Gonna watch Troy with rachel and Peter..Yaaay!! Ooo..Linkin Park is getting jiggy soon here..Anybody wanna pay for my tickets??

To Live is to Love and to Love is to Give...

2004-05-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

Amacam? Missing me yet? Yes yes Im still luckily alive..Just buried under this endless wave of nonsensical forms..You know right, we have the 5 traditional stages of career? Im already at the decline stage..And I still have like 5 more weeks to go..Heez..I HATE MY JOB! I HATE MY OFFICE! AND I HATE THE PEOPLE!!. Give me a miserable $420 just to scan in some shits? What an insult. Seriously, could you give me like more challenging tasks? I know Im not that intellignet but hey AT least Im smart! Haha..Consoling myself..

My condolences to you. So sorry to hear about your uncle..I missed you so much..Looking forward to Friday..To all those whom I consider my friends (I have many friends but not all of them are my friendslike Honey,Sarah,Qinz,Ver,Anzhel,Wanek,Ayu,Peter,Tim,Fab and some more, "hey guys! we should meet up more often. Who knows we might not see each other again..All those unsaid words and missed chances will just pass us by..To live is to love, and to love is to give..Stay friends forever". (My God, did I just so not me?)

To my Bebey..Minah..Its been a long while since we had a girls session just the 2 of us..Kinda missing that now..Fine, Im missing you bebey!! Just read your blog and I just want to tell you that we will still be friends even though we are far apart..So much I missed about you..Happy Anniversary!! You have Heidy Boys' back and mine to back you up!! I will always be your one and only..(GROSS!)Haha..You feel me dog? About that Miss Try-to-Diss Liss, just dont give a damn about her..Shes not even worth your make up time..Maybe shes jealous because she didnt get to be your friend..Take it easy..I will always be here for you..Just call my name and you can basically hear me running my elephants steps behind..Hahhaa..Love you bebey!!

Life is not just a game to reach the last stage..Its meant for you to make something out of yourself, be proud and aim high, leaving this world with inner peace knowing you've done what you should do..I really feel sad for the fututre generation. Slumming around, hooked on dope and basically have no ambitions. Yes Im talking about my own race. Apa nak jadi dengan orang Melayu sekarang? No hope..All they care is about image, quick ways to get moolahs and screwing themselves away..Not that Im not doing that but you know, what DPM said about young Singaporeans are true..We are bo-chaps..Not willing to be adventurous..Am I one of them?

Same shits again....

2004-05-15T13:24:00.000+08:00

Basically, I have nothing new or 'interesting' to report about my job.. Heres what Ive been doing..Im listing all that Ive done. So far..
Tuesday
Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents. Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents. Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents. Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents. At at Burger King for lunch. Tried the new Mozarella Cheese or somthing and the cheese nuggets. Saw Achit. After lunch continued to unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents. Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents. Went back home with Ah Jie and ate honey chicken pao.
Wednesday
Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents.Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents.Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents.Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents. Ate chendol for lunch. Same thing after lunch.. Productivity low..Only did 700 +..Dont give a shit..Bryan 'complained' documents were senget..Ate chicken curry, fishcakes and RICE for dinner. Sleep. Even missed Buffy man.. Heez..
Thursday
Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents.Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents.Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents.Unstapling, scanning and stapling clients documents. Ate at Long Johns. Saw a pretty Boy. SAme shit again. Yadda yadda yadda..Went home with Rachel.
Friday
SAme stuff again..Bryan said productivity low..Please work harder..Yadda yadda yadda.. Ate Nasi Goreng for lunch..Again, did my 'work'. Met up with Peter and Rachel after that. Lifted my spirits because we ate at Pizza Hut. Thank you Peter for your treat.. Ate ice- cream at the Crepes and Creame place..Nice~!!

So this will be my job scope for the fucking next 6 weeks..I feel like quitting after the 2nd day..Tell me..How am I supposed to bear with doing endless shits and this bloody repetitive work? Its like an insult to my intelligence@ It totally has nothing to do with my diploma..Heez..At least all of you are doing something worthwhile..Like Nurul..Doing the executive job..I feel like a bloody retard..You tell me, is your job better or worse than mine? Want to exchange? And I like have the best computer in the office..Flat screen. Big and new but its the suckiest. You know why? Because it has no Internet or even a single freaking game..Not even a solitaire..My God..You know Junli? His attachment is at Tracee the shoe shop..At least his pay is so much better, $5.50/hr..And mine is like a m,iserable $420 with no overtime pay.. And Ive been 'drowning' my sorrows thrugh food. Heez..Ive gained back 1 kg!! Is it true Jacky cheated in OM paper?

Chapter 1: Monday's Shits

2004-05-13T21:11:00.000+08:00

My God..I nv logged in for a few days and everything changed..So interesting ah? Kinda like this new blogger layout..Its refreshing..Heez so jebronies(correct spelling?) missed me yet? I know I know..Ive so been detached from the world after the exams..Its a whole long list of complaints so this is gonna take long..

My 'favorite' module..OM..What the fuck was Mr Lim thinking to chnage the pattern for iur batch? Why never follow the past 3 years format?? I didnt learn time smapling and it came out??!! It should be work sampling!!Heez man..20 marks jus shitted out wihtout warning.. All the papers this semesters are freaking hard..Especially BSD..All crap and crap.. im allergic to studying you know!!

Firstly, for those of you freaks who dont know where the hell Im posted to, its at Phillips Securities (North Brigde)..Aiyah, you drop at City Hall Interchnge and just go straight..yes thats where my bloody company is..Heez..Such a freaking boring and tedious job..

Monday
Came at 9..Met up with veron and Zhihao..Anyway, Zhihao is a nice kid..And met the fellow attachees..OOpss..Forgot to say about Nurul..Yes shes in the same company as us..Poor us huh? Waited for the Miss Sunny Lim for about 20 minutes? The room was kinda quiet except for Ver, Nurul and me talking..So I decided to be Miss Friendly (wait I already am right? :)) and asked everyone whether they are hungry..And everyone just started talking to each other..We are a nosiy bunch..Then we got to know our department..Ver, Zhihao and me were posted at EDP..Minghui at Operations with the 'fire-eating lady', Guo Yi at Accounts and lucky Nurul got at the high level uo there..I mean like real EXECUTIVES..Hahaha..Act, Zhihao kena posted at Accounts but got 'kicked' out because he dont know shit about accounts..Haah..So met with Lai Hock (Boss ler)..He kept crapping and crapping about the company la, what they do, even asked us to collect brochures and read up yadda yadda yadda..ZZ got a shares book..Hahaha..Then met up with Ryan the guy sharing the row with us..Is he married..I thought I heard he is married ler..Learnt how to scan in customers forms through Liza (pronounced as Lai-zer in Eliza)..She is small, petite and short and look old though..25-ish except that shes only 19!! Wampatan! Someone is shorter than you ler!! Haha..Sorry Liza..Then did some scanning until lunch..Oh yah, My lunch is at 12..Meet ups anyone? Ate at the food court upstairs..Oh yah..the guys there are like sexists..Which means guys only eats with guys and so forth..So dumb! Then learnt a bit about Opening Cutomer Account(MCIs)..I have something to confess la..When Joanne taught me the process I dont understand shit about it? Haha..Sorry Joanne..Joanne, Liza and 2 more girls are also temp staff..Leaving next week!! Should it be a YAAYY!! or SOBS? Keep scanning and unstapling and stapling and scanning and unstapling and stapling and scanning and and unstapling and stapling scanning and and unstapling and stapling scanning and and unstapling and stapling scanning and and unstapling and stapling scanning until 6.30..Got quota to reach you know..700 endless slips of forms..Went home after that and for the 1st time since secondary school I was so beat that I slept at a freaking early hour..10 o'clock la!! Heez..even missed Eye For A Guy..Ya ya Silvert won and Marks dating the ~~guy~~girl..No suprises there la..Oh Senor Vince..Im missing you~!!

How? Long enough for Monday..Got some more but so lazy to type..Tomorrow shallt ype about Tuesday...American Idol is on..Latoya got the boot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why not Jasmine???? Why America? Are you deaf or something? Do you need me to 'korek' your ears personally???

2 Down...2 More To Go...

2004-05-03T18:20:00.000+08:00

What is a case diagram and how does it differ from an object in an object oriented environment..Haha..This question stumped me man..Finally BSD is so yesterday..Up next is IPT (Internet Programming Language) in other words programming module which I so HATE. I can never be a programmer..All those dumb executions and codes seems to make me want to be eaten alive by the cookie monster instead..Ya ya.. Crapping...But its true la..IPT is easy to score but hard to do..Geddit?

DONT FORGET TO CATCH EYE FOR A GUY TODAY..MY SPANISH TEACHER WILL BE APPEARING!! Haha..But let me warn you, hes not handsome or what..And he looked fat in front of the camera.. But nonetheless, I like him..He will be the 'Mark's best friend or something..God, what an ugly 'babe'..Heez..

Just now at Macdonalds early in the morning, (yah trying to cram at 8 in the morning!!) had a super shiok time shitting..All came out..Haha..Gross syiqin gross..But Its so fun..Unlike yesterday when I had sort of diarrhoea..Keep shitting and shitting like theres no end..Then I thought I saw Su Yin..I just finished refilling our cups then I walked back when the girl behind our booth looked at me one kind..I look back at her la.. She look kinda familiar, like Su Yin..But she keep staring and staring at me so like duh I stared back..Didna acknowledge her or what..skali wrong person..So when she went to the toilet, I asked her to look for the name.. She told me some english name and I was like in sec sch, I knew peoples chinese name not their bloody ang moh name..So I ask her to look for the surname whether it was Chong..But it was not so she wasnt my friend but the weirdest part is that she keep looking at me..Distracting..Like she was somehow interested in me..Hahahaha......

Met Junli (my Junsiong!) and Robert..They were sort of having the same test, Systems Analysis like our BIT..But its different with a bit of similarities.. You ah, I thought he cut hair or what when You showed me the picture of him with his hair short..Heez..He still havent cut hair la..I cut for you want?

So lazy to start studying for OM and IPT..I hope Emily likes her present.. :)

Girl!! bring me Extrim this Friday ok?? Sorry dear, too tired of dieting...

Till I Get Over You.......

Its a wild world...

2004-05-01T17:52:00.000+08:00

Currently addicted to this awesome song..Dont know why but the lyrics touched me the most..Theres lots of feelings inside here..Im just a sucker for these songs..Haha..

Wild World by Mr.Big

Now that I've lost everything to you,
You say you want to start something new,
And it's breaking my heart you're leaving,
Baby I'm grieving.
But if you wanna leave take good care,
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear,
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there.

Oh baby baby it's a wild world,
It's hard to get by just upon a smile.
Oh baby baby it's a wild world,
I'll always remember you like a child, girl.

You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do,
And it's breaking my heart in two,
Because I never want to see you sad girl,
Don't be a bad girl,
But if you want to leave take good care,
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there,
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware, beware

Oh baby baby it's a wild world,
It's hard to get by just upon a smile.
Oh baby baby it's a wild world,
And I'll always remember you like a child, girl.

Baby I love you, but if wanna leave take good care,
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there,
But just remember there's a lot of bad, and beware, beware,
Oh baby baby it's a wild world,
It's hard to get by just upon a smile.
Oh baby baby it's a wild world,
And I'll always remember you like a child, girl.

Everytime....

2004-04-30T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hope you are able to understand...

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...
After all...

Britney Spears - Everytime

Yes!

2004-04-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

Finally..That god knows he cant sing asshole is out of the competition!! Yes Im so talking about John Stevens!!! Yes..THank you thank you America!!!!! Finally..you guys showed improvements in understanding the quality of good singers..There is still hope yet...Hahahaa...Go Fantasia!! If only JPL was here..I miss you!!

I cant breathe easy...

..Its so obvious..

2004-04-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

What a sucky sucky paper today..I cant even answer most of the questions and the chapter that we thought will some out never appeared..Fuck I studied Globalisation..And even asked Shasha who are the wineers and losers in globalisation..Fuck Fuck Fuck..What the hell are compensable factors? Describe 3 compensable factors in a cleaner's job in Singapore? Huh? Ya ya ya..Lost 20 marks just like that..My aim for at least a B doesnt look realistic at all..AArgghh!! Why tell me why? HRM sucks big big time!! BSD even more worse..How the hell am I suppose to know all the diagrams? Activity diagram, use case yadda yadda.. And the paper is on MONDAY!! Monday Blues man..Not even expecting to pass overall...What a bitch!! I hate studying..Dont you know Im allergic to revision? There was even enough time to complete the paper..But I do have time to file my nails..I know..I was biting my nails and filing them at the same time..I know..So bimboish right?? Am I turning like her??

Bought skipping rope!! Haha..At Daiso..I wanna buy the dumb bell too but since Ive borrowed from her I might as well see how effective before I buy on my own.. I need blusher!! Need so many things le..No moolah for it..Heez..

Its raining heavily outside..Thunder and lightning seems to be a part of everyday life..Crashing sounds waking me up from the safe cocoon..Its so freaky how Singapore's construction to be on the bad side? Its been 2 'crashes' less than a week..1st it was the Nicoll Highway, now its some other building..If Im not wrong, 1 is dead right? Heez..Keep thinking whether my apartment is safe..Haha..Choi!

I only ate salad form Long John today..Guess who I saw!! My secondary school teachers!! Mr Woon, Mr Lim, Mr Chong (yes the sucky Dimus Chong!) and the ever expanding Mr Nur..Haha..Still remeber our 'strike' on Mr Woon..Ya..more on that later..Too lazy to dig up the memories..Heez..

When I see you standing there, wanting more from me..And all I can do is try...... Its so obvious my feelings for you..

If tomorrow never comes.....

2004-04-28T18:36:00.000+08:00

So..More than 12 hours to go till I will take the test of truth and endurance..The ability to maximise the usage of my empty brain...I can hear the clock go tick tock tick tock...Arrgh~ Im not even confident to get a B for tomorrows paper..Wish me luck y'all..What a dumb dumb module...Human Resource Management.. Though I always enjoyed the class..Heez...

Been obsessed with losing weight all thanks to her. Cant believe she managed to lose so much weight just by exercising and killing herself in the process..Haha..Give those poor muscles a break..You want to lose weight not gain muscles la..But Im so on a major crash diet.. I know its not the proper thing and its kinda dangerous but when a girl is deperate, she will do anything within her means..Been having an apple for breakfast only..No carbs, no meat...Am I turning into a vegetarian? Haha..I couldnt picture myslef as a vegetarian man..Think.. A world without chicken, prawns, fish and sotong! And beef and lamb..Heez..No I wont torture myself..How did you guys do it man?

Emilys birthday is coming..2 May..Dont know what to get her..Shes got everything man..Clothes, make-up, accessories, shoes, bags you name it she has it..Heez..Some people are just born with that silver/golden spoon in their mouths..I wanna watch TROY!! When is it open? You have Orlando plus Brad and muscles muscles and yummy bums..What else could you ask for in a movie? ;p

When I was walking home just now, at the ex Mawar Merah(GF, yous still dont know where this place is huh? How long have you stayed in Jurong West?) area, there was this crowd gathered . I also kepo kepo looked and there was this 2 hunky policemen and 2 guys from CD were hovering around this not so dead guy..An old man prolly around 50-ish? Heard that there was a fight and hes injured though I cant see any visible injuries la..He was like only holding on to his stomach..Its the 3rd time I sort of saw this kind of things..The 1st time was last year at JP..Remember GF? The man who lied down outside the control station? Then a few months back when there was this incident near my house, S-11 infact where this man was like holding on to his bloody chest..Freaky huh? So many unsettlements around..Not to mention the never ending war..

Theres no immortality, whats the use of fighting for power?

So its countdown time form now...

2004-04-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

Heez..3 more days to go till its HRM paper and I havent even started on the revision yet!! How? I cant keep delaying my time but there seem to not enough time for me..Im having the muscles aches everywhere.. Think the dieting helped me a bit..Hahhaa..ya crap..Feel a bit slimmer (FEEL is the word). But I ate a lot today becaause of the gathering just now..

Today was the meet and greet session for the 2 families..Abg Naazreen and my family la..Heez man..They were actually late for 1 1/2 hrs! My sis was like feeling fucked up because Abg Naaz never informed her that they will be late..And its a black strike against Abg Naaz..Mu uncles and aunties were there and were like complaining about the lack of punctuality..Cant blame my relatives..They dont like to wait for people or make people wait for them..They are true to the word that kind of thang..Heez..Its was such a hot day and to add to the frustration, the lateness and my stomach cramps didnt help at all..Especailly for the freaking freaks who desperately need a tight slap from me..Maybe thats why I dont like to wait la..Im an impatient yet patient girl..

Shouldnt have eated that chocolate buns form Delifrance..And the tarts!! Man, all those calories are being replaced as Im typing away here!! Dammit!! My left fingers feel a bit sore because I spent the entire morning peeling or 'sianging' the prawns to make fried noodles and chap chye..You know when you peel prawns their 'brains' are like oozing out and in bright colors like yellow and green? Ya I have to suffer that this morning..Rudely awakened at such an early hour..9 am you know! Haha...

Need to study..Kepp telling myself but to no avail..Please..Still got so many things to study le!! Heez la la..
Went to my attachment breifeing yesterday..have 2 slots..Either I start work at 9 and end at 6.30 or start at 10 and end 7.30..Me and Ver chose the latter..And put 5*s name on the earlier slot! mean right? Anyway its like 1st come first served what..She didnt come so its not my problem!! Haha..Dammit I sound so mean..But Im pissed of with my pay of measly $420..Xiangwei got at DBS Bank and get $600 and that ass Derry got $800 for working at UPS..Or Power Supply..I cant remember..But the bottomline is that they got so much more than me..Think of all the things I could buy with that money..I could get a NEW phone man!! Desperately needing a new phone..My battery always died on me..Heez.....PP, you treating us to watch Kill Bill 2 rite? :)

A woman is beautiful only when she doesnt think she is beautiful

Its Official!!

2004-04-24T16:02:00.000+08:00

Haha..Its the officially the 4th time Im changing my layut in 2 days..Actually wanted this for quite some time but my sis actaully used it before..And now Im using it..Mite use this for a week (I hope) before I change again..Hahaha.>Exams coming soon!! Lalalala..Try to finish up asap aiite??

Damn~~~!!

2004-04-22T17:34:00.000+08:00

Dammit..Jennifer Hudson got kicked out!! Over that bloody f*cker John Stevens..Hello?? Jennifer is like one of the most talented singers around..Better than Latoya in my opinion..Damn America..Whats woring with your jugdement talent nowadays? Throwing out the best things when you have them..Dont regret it! Yes..Im still smarting over JPLs elimination..We so dont need another Clay Aiken! No maam one is enough.. What am I thinking to compare redhead with Clay? At least Clay can sing!! Get that ass outta here before I do something bad!

Lets Pee!!

2004-04-22T16:39:00.000+08:00

Wa wee...Today was my NSA (Network Server Administration) test..Want to say hard not that hard if you really studied hard..I was like shit dammit, I jus read it and I forgot about it? And I did the RAID question man! Its like I didnt even read the notes on that yet I tried that,,Dont worry, dont think will score well la.. Heez..The first time ever needed to ask for more paper..Haha..Even her used up extra paper le..When I came at 8 this morning, the F4s were there..I think I was hallucinating because I heard they mentioned my name so ya of course I pretended not to hear la..Haha..Kian, thanks for lending me your HRM book..Return to you on Monday kay?

So after the test, I managed to get away before Im stuck in the room, LIndsey, her and me went to Empress at Clementi to watch a movie.. Actually wanted to watch Starsky & Hutch or Dawn of the Dead but sadly, it was showing there so it was between 50 First Dates and Taking Lives and after much heeing and hawing, decided to watch Taking Lives.. My God, the cinema is so ulu la..Like a brothel..So bright pink like neon lights and kinda isolated too..Must clim so many stairs..Haha..There were like less than 10 people in there..We were like huddled together with my shawl as coverage when the scary parts came..

Ratings? I m giving it 2 smooches out of 5..Its not that bad but it wasnt great either..There was a plot but there were many holes they didnt cover like the elaboration of how Martin survived for many years without getting caught and why..You know the stuff we movie goers wanted to know so much..But I like the ending though..Kind of suprising and Ethan Hawke is hot hot hot..Oliver Martinez is a sexy French guy, "The bastard at the morgue". Hahaha..Angelina Jolie, you are the hottest babe! But doncha think its kinda kewl to be able to take someone else's life and live it? Its like changing your clothes..So who would I want to be? I dont tknow actually..Maybe Beyonce or Gwen Stefani..It would be cool though..Its just a thought..Dont worry, I wont start killing people la..So we are watching Starsky & Hutch next week and TROY!! Ollie man..Ollie rules..Yadda yadda yadda..After effects of shitting la..

Oh when we were going home I tripped at the stairs and almost rolled down the stairs..Freaky ah..And those 2 morons just laughed and laughed..Heez..So when we had our lunch at KFC (dont try the Caeser sumthing - it taste something awful) we were talking about our most embarrassing moments when we were in pri and sec sch..Haha..the worst was LIndsey la..How she 'peed' at her doorstep in Sec 2!! Haha.. She buay tahan sia her pee..And during her pri sch days also which was worse la..Peed when singin the National Anthem and didnt even bother to change before taking the school bus..Gross..Then during your NPCC camp when your menses came and you cant change it because you need to debrief la, pai sey to take the 'bread' because all the CIs are in the room..yadda yadda yadda..never laughed so much during these few days..Been stressed and coming right up are new stresses again!! Oh..I know I shouldnt say this, but she has a bubble bag!! 2 in fact!! You know the trend of bubble back like 4 years ago?? Haha..Hello Kitty and one other cartoon..Heez..You know got the jelly bag trend now right?? Hahaa..I only remebered that I always pee in my skirt during pri 2..One incident was during the Maths Exam..I still small so kinda scared of the teacher and dont wanna ask permission because during exam so I just literally let go at my chair..Then I raised my hand and said, "Teacher, I shi-shi.." Haha..The urine was like collected like ~~orange~~ lime juice at the seat of the chair..I have to go to the General Office to get a new skirt..It happen a lot of times..Heez..

Next up is HRM (human resource management) paper..One of the most hardest paper to score..I need to get at least an A for the exam to get a B+ at least..Do you think I can do it??

Lalala

2004-04-21T18:24:00.000+08:00

Ya..just reached home from Civic Ctr..Haha, ya to study but only managed to read thorugh only 2 chapters..And the test is like tomorrow..So sad so sad..

Actually nothng much to blog about..Its a freaky thing to happen huh the highway? It can just go KABOOM and your life ends just like that..Makes me think if I were to die just like that leaving so many unfulfiled wishes and desires..All those people whom I never got the chance to know well, to experience life fully and to atone for all those sins I did..Lifes short but people just abuse life like that with the perception you live just once go enjoy it..But to enjoy it at the expense of real happiness..Yadda yadda..Im crapping la..

If youre ignoring me, do tell me what Ive done wrong..This silence is killing me

2004-04-17T20:07:00.000+08:00

Haha..

You guys read my tagboard yet? I dont know how it happened. People was surfing for JON PETER LEWIS and they came to my blog..Oh dear..Im so sorry..But its so funny..To think I once commented on JPL in my past entries and its been what cached? Heez..

Ya, I know my attachment company. Philips Securities Pte.. Not sure what company that is..But Emily said its a sucky sucky company. An d Nureen got into Mariott Hotel!! Lucky man! Why am I so unlucky..Dont know to be suay or not but Im in the same company with Veron and Nurul..Hahaha.....

What a load of crap...

2004-04-17T19:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was probably the most horrible day to happen..And to top it all off, JPL got voted out.. WTF? I was so looking forward to see him up there in the final 5 and this has to happen? I admit that he wont be the winner but he was so damn better than that redhead John n Jasmine..His performance yesterday was probabbly the best performanc he put up since being in the final 12..Its all rigged! A conspiracy! Arrghh!!! Can you see how he seems to know that hes out?

First off, I had a project meeting at 10. I left my house at 9.10 and everything seems well. When I reached my stop to take 154 (I need to take a bus to get to the 154 stop which is like 7 minutes away from my house)..I waited for the bus until like 9.30 when I realized I didnt take the thumbdrive that has my BSD report in.. So I went home to take it. By then, I was like freaking pissed and it was so hot. Then when I went downstairs the second awful thing happened. The straps on my new sandals which I wore for less than 4 times snapped..Yes..SNAPPED! Just like that without a warning. So I was rushing back to change my slippers..I reached school at 10.35 like that with balls of fustration dying to get out. And I was having bad cramps too..On Thursday was worse. I didnt know that me period came and it stained my jeans! And i was going to town on that day to find a present. I wanted to go home but since my poor girl will be alone trying to find a present, I tried to was the orangey stain as best as I could and covered it with my jacket. Yah, one bad luck after another..

So went to Swensens to celebrate Verons and PPs birthday..I had the baked rice. Quite nice and filling. and when the ice-cream came, no one wanted to eat it because we were too full. PP wanted to treat us ($200+) but we were like NO are you mad?? Although I dont mind la..Heez..

Then the rest wen to watch Into the Mirror at Plaza Singapura while Kian, Pang, Hwee Eng and me went home..Suprisingly I found a topic to talk with Hwee Eng..Hahaha.. We were like talking about PeiShan.. Seems like power grabbing is going on there..*winks* You know Amanda also dont do project. Suprising? I thought so too..But most of the conversation was about Kian trying to find out who I used like..Yah, my girls know who he is but it was on Kians mind everytime..He actually guessed who but of course I wont admit it la..I dont trust his mouth..Pang knows it and I trust uou ok Pang? Heez..Emily is trying to find out too..Shes quite close with that person and no I dont trust her actions. No Maam..I dont..

She is going to Sentosa tomorrow. I wanna come but I still have Spanish to do..So sian..

Yadda yadda yadda...

2004-04-15T12:09:00.000+08:00

Are you guys missing me yet? It’s been like what? 2 weeks since you’ve heard the latest from this diva..Heez..And the layout is nowhere completed..Im still waiting for that someone to offer his help.. Hint Hint Hint..Just complete this layout, girlify it and Im the happiest girl..And Bunny is back in action. Welcome back to the virtual home!!

Well, ~~today~~ ~~yesterday~~ ok to be exact on the 14 April is Peter Paul’s birthday!! *Clap clap clap* Didn’t buy for him any real prezzie yet..Except for blanja him just now during lunch tau suan (is this how you spell it?) Anyway, PP now big already cannot always bully me ok? Must treat us to Pizza Hut ok? We eat vegetarian pizza ok? Heez..Today water festival never splash you with water ah? So how many people died so far in Thailand?

Had our BSD final presentation. Hehe, Mr. Lim said it was very good. All thanks to Emmanuel and ME!! I did the ppt like intensively from 7 to midnight without giving my poor eyes a rest..Haha, ok la PP did a lot too and he did IPT all by himself so thank you PP..I know we all this semester become very slack and low standard and we piss you off often but all if good now..Only that for HRM we didn’t get what we wanted for our project. Heez, how hard do I have to study to achieve an A in HRM?

Have to go for ITP briefing next week. What a bother.

Ok ok, I have to complete my Spanish assignment. I have to write a letter in Spanish describing myself and describe my favorite celebrity. Heez, I cant even structure a perfect Spanish sentence and I have to do this? And its like everybody’s IS class is so over last week while I have to attend my last next week. Though the thought of having pure nachos next week sounds appealing.

So, ya about the super duper hot news I heard yesterday. How could you not tell me you’re attached? I thought this kind of thing you will share one??!! I mean come on lah we’re good friends and all that and I have to find out from other people on my own? Heez, I know I cant say who because its supposed to be hush hush though Im dying to say who but I already promised but promises are made to be broken right? Anyhow, congratulations on finding your ‘Britney Spears’. Wishing you the best and bring her ok to dinner on Friday? Okok, I have to say this, she’s one of my blogger pals but Im so not telling you. This is allowed right?

I hate to be forced into something which Im not willing to. I don’t have a choice do I? I mean you didn’t ask me whether I want it or not. You just made the decision for me. Why is that? Just because people think we ‘are’ from the outside but I have never thought so. The reality is different from all this act we put up every single day, lying through my teeth. Ok, I know that part of it is my responsibility as a friend but sometimes you go too far. I cant have you dragging my day down. I know Im being mean and so super bitchy but I am in a not so good mood. I am trying to change to be ‘nicer’ but Im trying so hard not to slap your face and ask you to wake up. I keep telling myself what goes round coes round and Im afraid I could be getting the short end of the stick when this is all over. Its not only because of you, its all of you! Please stop trying to smother me..I need to breathe!! Rach, please help me go through this idiosyncrasies going through in my mind. Help me be NICE! Not to 1 but the double 5 stars!!!

Damn..

2004-04-01T12:24:00.000+08:00

Damn..I cant take off my watch le...The lacth is stuck and spoiled le..And she told everyone that it was an April Fool's joke..Heez..I cant take off my bloody watch...

Happy April Fool's Day!

2004-04-01T10:07:00.000+08:00

They stole my 25 cents eraser too!! What in the world is happening to me?

Well, right now in the lab accompanying her to do her OM assignment. See la, she made me skip BSD lecture again.. Heez man..Exams are coming lah dey..When are we starting revision?

Wah, everyone commented that I look kinda dark. Well, they have not seen my back and neck yet. My God.. It's so dark. Not black I repeat its dark not black. Hopefully I wont be like her ah..Haha..Joking joking..But lets just say Im deliciously tanned. Haha..Tanned my ass!

Hey, its April Fool's Day! The 1 yr anniversary of Leslie Chung. I remember exactly 1 tr ago, I was having dinner at Jurong Point's Long John's Silver with her and Abeng..Its freakiy how 1 yr just pass you by swiftly without even breathing it through..Oh ya, I was kinda punk'd by me own Mumsie this early morn. Me Mama, the unprecedented prankster. She always manage to catch me every year without fail. Damn! Haha..but I got her too!! So all's not lost! Have a great start for April freaks!

They Stole From Me!

2004-03-30T11:48:00.000+08:00

Wowee..Lets see..So many things for me to share with y'all but I dont know where to start..Let me take you back to Thursday where a bloody moronic thing happened. As you guys know, Im teaching tuition to Rena and Crstal who are sisters. So on Thursday, they came as planned. I have 2 pink mechanical pencil; a shaker and a normal one. I prefer to use the normal one because I dont like shaker tah much. So, I always lend them two my pencils to prevent them from using my pens. So on Wenesday, Crstal brought her purple mechanical pencil which has the white tip u know at the pencil tip? Anyway it was msiing. And Crystal sasid, "Jie jie, can help me buy a new mechanical pencil?" And I was like , "Ok, if you pass your tests and do all the homework Ive given you." Then the next day, continued from above, I was inside my room finishing up on my project with them outside. I didnt take long, maybe 10 minutes top.

Then when I came out, I noticed that both of them were using their own wooden pencils instead. I didnt find that weird at first then wehn I wanted to use my normal mechanical pencil, I click and click and the lead wouldnt come out which was weird because I just replaced it with a new one. And to my horror I realized that my tip was missing. Which could only mean 1 thing. I just kept quiet with my anger mounting deep inside of me. Then few minutes later when I cannot thana, I said," I dont want to say anything but whatever it is you take, please give it to me back." And Rena was like, "No Jiejie, we nevr take it. When I use your pencil it spoiled by itself." And in my mind was like yeah bullshit. I just used that pencil a few minutes ago and dont tell me the tip decided to fall out by itself. And dont think I cant see the looks you two kept passing to each other when you think Im not looking. I might be shortsighted but I am not blind or dumb. I just kep quiet and confronted them again later to which they said'" No, it drop down when just now I open just for fun." I really have no comments about that. They still have not returned me my poor tip. Its like so dumb right? I mean, duh..you can ask me for a new mechanical pencil and you dont have to take it form me. Im like a better lair than the two of you put together. Rena is 8 while Crystal is 6 btw. Now I have to buy a new mechanical pencil. Aarrgghh!! Bloody them. No, Im not going to bring that matter up again..Heez..No its not even funny. Stop laughing you moron ! Aarggh...

Shall blog more on my Sentosa class gathering on Sunday tomorrow. That is if Sellybaby uploaded the pics yet.

Too burnt to write

2004-03-28T21:35:00.000+08:00

Heez..Am tired..Burnt..Dark..Spanish test tomorrow..Die..Irregular verbs..Will update tomorrow..Need sleep..Itchy..Dreaming of you..

Nak Kahwin??

2004-03-27T19:44:00.000+08:00

Just got back and decided to blog..See, its benn like 4 days since you guys heard from me and my layout is nowhere completed..Anyone wants to finish it up for me?? :)

So, today went to Expo. Got malay wedding exhibition. Ye lah, want to survey survey dulu.. Penat nak mampos sey. Kept walking and walking for 3 hours non stop. Banyak na orang. Of course, they were there mostly to catch the cast of Cinta Bollywood. Haha..so lame those who went and wanted their autographs..All the makcik-makcik and budak2 kecik..Aiyor..Anyway, Aaron was kinda cute up close and personal and ~~Julia~~ Suhaila was sweet. So petite. Nurul and Hadi were there too. Not my Nurul Haniza and Abdul Hadi you know..You know the Hadi that played Amelia's bf in Anak Metropolitan and Nurul that was Aaron Aziz's adik in CInta Bollywood?? (By the way, as Im typing this, Honeyza is at Expo..Feeling she's a bride!!) Its scary how much information I know about thses kinds of things. Oh yah, do you guys know that Suhaila is a janda?? My sis and auntie told me. Nuraliza was so pretty. Its a shame she was kinda 'ugly' during the Miss Universe 2002..Anyway, was walking when this particular blouse caught my eye. I dont kow how to describe it but it was so me. The price was too steep man. $35. Hello?? Its not as if its a branded label or what. Then there was this bag. $14. I didna bring my moolah and wanted to pinjam money from my mama and she dong wang to give me!! So mean right?? My own mother! Heez.. Got pertandingan joget somemore and the pakciks bukan main gelek! Mak oi!

Then we proceeded to Geylang..Non, lets buy that baju kurung ok? Save money!! Its pretty pretty like me!! Haha..Then Abg Naz joined us and we ate murtabak, nasi bruyani and thosai. Im like freaking full now. Do you guys look at your 'shit'? Not in a perverted manner or what, but I like noticed that these few dyas my shit is thin and pencil like. Does that mean anything?

At Geylang, got so many mats naik the bicycle with the motors. Its like illegal, isnt it? These people are those who feeling nak naik motor but havent get lesen yet..Kia kia kia..Need to study for Spanish test. irregular verbs.. Heez..El diffico..me no hablo espanol..

To Rachel : To hate is to deny loving someone. I know how hard its been for you and I wish I could take away some of your pain. Just breathe, smile and the sun will still keep on shining for you. Im always here ok? Take it easy. Love you..

New Skin

2004-03-24T16:13:00.000+08:00

under construction...come back later!!!

My Blogger Pals

2004-03-23T18:31:00.000+08:00

Im sick of my skin. Thinking of changing to a new one and I have this surfer skin for like less than 2 weeks.. Heez, so should I change or shouldnt i? Anyway Parinya has a blog!! Yeay! I helped him choose a skin. Snoopy one. See it here.

So we had our HRM presentation today. I think we did all right except that we were draggy. We took like a freaking 1/2 to present or to be exact 26 minutes..I nearly fell asleep myself..Heez..So up next is NSA presentation this Thursday. Time really flies and we're having test again!! :(.. Been having cramps and major mood swings lately. Like today, I cant even finish 1 small plate of mee rebus and I already feel like vomitting it all out. And actually today I wore a grey top but changed it to my black cardigan because I felt so 'tak sedap' wearing that. So tired lately. Oh, anyone interested in coming to my school this Sunday for NOSTALGIA NIGHT at the convention center? Tickets are $6 each. Why am I promoting this? When Nadia called me up and invited me, I was like cool! Then she told me that it was featured in Berita Harian so I flipped over to the page and guess who I saw? Its Nurul. So she managed to fulfil one of her wish to join the Malay Dance. *rolls eyes*. Then met her this morning. Of course I didna mention about the article and you know what she actuall sort of 'strutted' that article to my face. She was like "Aku ada tau kat newspaper. Malu sey." And I was like I never even ask. I know Im being mean but I dont know. Me and her are nowhere close no more so I dont know whats our future. And Nureen if you're reading this, just ignore me ok? Hahaha..She also want to have a blog. Its amazing how my blog pals have grown. I mean at 1st it was me alone who has a blog. Apart from my sisters la. Then her, then her then him..So fun ah? And Tim also want to leave livejournal to blogger. Kewl.

You know, I didna know that Nicholas is smart. He's going for IAP (6 months attachment). Heez. And the sad news is that we wont be sharing our last year together. He will be starting only on the last semester. Sad right? I mean it will be preferable if the last year all of us are together. Heez.. So sad so sad..its a sad sad situation

Yesterday when watching Top Model, an issue came to my mind. By the way, Elyse was gorgeous and Adrianne..Woo hoo!! Yeah, the makeup guy said Never ever match eye shadow with the color of your dress or whatever you'll be wearing but my make up teacher, Sally Chew said to match . So Im in a dilemma. To match or not to match? That's why I dont like eye shadows that much. Im an eyeliner gal. That reminds me. I have to get a new eyeliner soon. My ZA eyeliner is running out!!

Aku memang Melayu..

2004-03-20T13:56:00.000+08:00

Wa ka ka..Was surfing around and read my horoscope..(im a scorpion btw) Not that I beieve in horoscopes or anything but you know just for fun. So my horoscope for today is: "Fun and guilt reach a fork in the road. Stick with your preferred traveling companion as the fireworks begin. Your imagination has prepared you for this kind of reality, so you know exactly what to do." Hmm...Get that hint? You get that? Did you get get get that? Hahaha...

Skipped OM lecture yesterday. Naughty naughty..Alah..Come school for 2 hrs only..Where can tahan..So went to Jurong East swimming complex instead with her. My ear is still blocked anyway. Had fun although didnt do any swimming but more of lazying. For 2 hrs only. The sun was scorching man and I didnt want to look so dark like someone..Hehe..Then went to JP to have our lunch at KFC. Yes, I hear you. What's the point of swimming when you will have the calories back? Heez..Anyway, I saw Waikit. Shouted his name but he never hear. Wanek tokd me that he and Aida broke up already. And I was like serious?? This means Ayu still have a chance! Kia Kia..

I woke up a bit early at 10 today, feeling like watching Bionic Woman (yes I know). Instead of BW, it was Wonderwoman instead. Ting ting ting..wonderwoman~..No comments on that. Da Jie just went out to meet her blogpals..She's feeling a bit down because her company, Smartidea closed down officially yesterday..Heez..I feel you sis but you still have to pay me the $20.50 that you owe me!! :)

Bae Yong Jun is in Singapore. Cant believe it that he will have an orchid named after him. I mean if its Won Bin then that's a different storylah..No, Im not crazy over Korean guys. That's her..Me, I go for the likes of Takuya Kimura, Yutaka Takenouchi..you get my drfit. Heez..Da Jie birthday coming soon. I still havent get her a prezzie yet. Oh ya..HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY SELLY!! Wah sey, 19 tomorrow. Big already ah..Grow up so quick that Im just blown away by you sweets. She's a pretty girl. Check her out here..Heez..make sure you come next weekend, aite?

Before I forget, ATTENTION ALL MY EX CLASSMATES FROM JSS 4/1..THERE WILL BE A PICNIC ON 28 MARCH AT SENTOSA. MEETING TIME IS 12. DO COME. Heez..gather all you can, bring all you want..Anything just msg Kyaw Lin or Irwani, ok?? Bumbye!!

Something for the Melayus out there..enjoy..

Aku Melayu

Aku Melayu?
Mak aku kasi nama Ayu
Aku rasa malu
Aku tukar jadi Jen
Sebab, lebih glamour
Tak macam Ayu
nama Melayu, aku tak sebulu

Aku Melayu?
Cakap aku pakai; I-you, I-you
Saya-Awak, macam kampung gitu
Sori, not for me, I tak mahu
Kalau you hendak, up to you

Aku Melayu?
Makan dengan tangan gelilah...
I suka pakai sudu garpu
Dekat rumah bolehlah
Tapi kalau kat restoran, malu
Nanti semua orang tengok aku
Silap-silap diaorang kata,
I ni, gelojoh you...

Aku Melayu?
Orang Melayu, mata cokelat gelap...
I suka mata biru
I pakai kontak lens
Sekarang mata I dah jadi biru
Otak I pun terikut, ada sikit blue
Kalau ada orang ajak,
Anytime I mau

Aku Melayu?
Of course!, I'm a Melayu.
I masih makan belacan
Walaupun I prefer keju
I masih pakai kain sarong
Walaupun I prefer tak pakai baju
I masih sambut Hari Raya
(But that's because I don't know what else to do!)

Sekali lagi, I nak kasi you all tahu
I ni masih Melayu
Tapi bukan sebarang Melayu - MELAYU BARU!

Copyright - SERAMBIZAMAN

After a long wait....

2004-03-18T15:14:00.000+08:00

Wowee..it seems like a long time I update..Blame it on my sheer laziness..So today I'll make a super duper long entry..Many things happened that I wish my mind was a recorder because I cant simply remember every event. But first off, need to make a shout out to my gurlie, Honey because its her 16 month anniversary today!! *claps* Lamer sey you all together-gether..Sampai aku naik jelak..kia kia kia..I dont have to wish the same things every month so yah all the best lah..

Yesterday went to Sentosa with Qinwei and Veron. But left 2 hours later. Pathetic right? We were feeling so lethargic and tired that we did not even swim in the deep deep not so blue sea.. The main reason for going there because Qinwei wanted to suntan. Keep complaining she was too white lah..Yadda yadda and we didnt come prepared. Like we didnt bring a mat, sunscreen, radio and cards. Pretty dumb of us huh? So reached there about 11, tried to sleep with the sun beating on my face for 1/2 hr, showered and took a monorail ride around Sentosa. Oh, took some pictures too..Oi, better upload ah? I reached home about 3 and slept until 6. Then it was tuition time. And a funny thing happened. At 9.20 around there, I opened the door so Crystal can go home. I didnt look autside because I was busy reminding her to do homework and when I turned, I saw this figure wearing white outside there and it said, "Hi". I was so bloody shocked that I cursed that boy. Yes it wasnt a ghost but a boy doing a survey. Hello? Can you dont like wear white at night? You want to give me a heart attack or what? I gave him a fright too because he didnt expect me to open the door..Bloody buggers..

And Mommy bought the Halal Food Boosters for my twin sisters. Eucks. Haha, I never tried that and Im still oh so smart..Got back my results. Did quite well especially the one that I thought I would fail. So left for BSD results which is confirmed I will fail. Especially the diagram parts. Heez man..

My classmates. Have important news. Im so over Babyboi. Honest..I thought hey lets get a taller guy and I managed to catch 1. You know who right?

DId y'all watch AI yesterday? Please let that girl who cant sing for life get eliminated tonoght. Yes, Im talking about LEAH..If it wasnt for Paula who chose her, you think America will vote for her? I dont think so..And of course we need to talk about my Jon Peter Lewis *melts* so cute and adorable right? Yes, he wont be the winner but he will go far..Speaking of reality shows, I just found out who the winner of Top Next Model is so Honeyza, if you're reading this, dont continue. Its Adrianne. Yup, the tomboy. Unbelievable ah? I thought it will be like Elyse or Ebony but its Adrianne. And Ebony was the lesbian lah, not Elyse. Heez, give me wrong info lah you.

Watched Haunted Mansion (or is it castle) on Tuesday. I dont know why y'all say its not nice. I enjoyed it. It was funny, entertaining and quite a good show. Ratings, I'll give it a 7/10. Not bad..

Woke up early to my Kak Non telling me there's a fat cockroach in the room. I just woke up and went to find some other place to sleep. And did I mention there was a fat lizard yesterday in the kitchen? Gross gross gross. Ooo, Buffy is back!! Yeay..Haha..I was a Buffy fan and never misseda single episode before. Notice the term WAS. But the last 2 seasons I only watched like less than 1/2 of the total episode. Sometimes the storyline is lame..

Heez..what a long entry but since you guys asked for it, bang!

JON PETER LEWIS!!

2004-03-11T11:41:00.000+08:00

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Woo hoo!! Hahaha..I know Im a bit crazy but I only have 1 word for you baby. Whoa!! My god! His performance was so cute! He looked positively adorable with that cute gap between his teeth, his boyish smile and charm and that dance. That dance. Fooh! You will go down in history as one of the most quirkiest guy to 'move' people with that dance.

Boredom and hungry

2004-03-10T15:05:00.000+08:00

Am so hungry although I ate porridge and fruits...Heez..must maintain figure..*rolls eyes*

Anyway..now at BSD class waiting for my group's turn to present..Im so tired and lazy..As usual, every Wednesday, come school for 3 hours and waste time by playing games on the Internet..Lindsey's feeling crappy because she's tired, Melissa is grumpy;PMS, OSI is smelly; nothing unusual there..hahaha..Im feeling bored really I am..Mr Lim cant stop crtitisizing other group's presentation..*slaps*

Many things I want to update like the superbly 'interesting' show yesterday but Im so lazy..When I blog, I need time to think and I cant think right now..Ooopss..its my group's turn already so later ok?? Wish me luck!!

Sick and sleepy

2004-03-07T20:41:00.000+08:00

Heez..Am down again with fever..Blocked nose or to be more exact runny nose until I cant even bend over without feeling the need to use the stopper to stop the mucus from coming out. Yucks yucks yucks. Head's splitting like someone just used a hammer and played drums on my head. All because of the Qinz who infected me with these bugs..

Jon is coming back! Jon is coming back!! Yeay..*claps hands* Hopefully he can make it to the top 12 or something..He's got potential, my man..Am supposed to be finishing my HRM report but I guess that can wait right? Haha..Went out with Mummy, Daddy and Nonie yesterday. First, went makan at West Coast. Ate nasi ayam black pepper..Tak takot ke ader bird flu?..Hmmphh..Then went to Ikea and survey survey there. So tired but along the way met Sam and wtf, he is like so skinny..Yes Im talking about Samuel Ho who used to be a ~~tub of lard~~ big guy. He is like so skinny like a galah(pole)..Heez..

Suzy!! If you come here again kan, leave your address eh? Because I lost your link and Im a hopeless nutcase right now..

The moronic monsters are back from Ubin..Why oh why are they back so fast? No fair that they got to use the new NPCC campsite. When it was my bacth some eons ago, we had the site where you slept on practically rocks on a sloping hill and where the toilets are so sucky (im not fussy) that I didnt pee for a like a freaking 3 days. I wonder if they took down the bench yet. So many happy memories there. But its kinda sad that they rearranged the areas. Last time, my school, Jurong was in Area 20 with Nan Hua, River Valley, Yusoff Ishak, Clementi Town, Jintai and Tanglin. Then last 2 years they shuffle here and there and Clementi Town and Jurong was 'kicked' out. Now Jurong in Area 17 or something. CAnt be bothered to know..Missed all my good friends in the original Area 20 though I cant remember anyone except for Faizal, Miao Qin, Koon Po and haha that's all I remember..Anyone knows how to contact back their friends from OBS? So many good friends that I lost contact with. Only Elthered remembers me. And Nicky though I lost her number..Eng Sooners, where y'all at??

Chapati and keema

2004-03-05T20:45:00.000+08:00

Yeay!! Common test is so yesterday!! Finally, my heart feels lighter without the excess of information but its sinking as minutes pass me by as another wave of reality sets in; deadlines for projects!! So many to do and so little time!!

Think Im failing the test I had this morning. What a load of crap! I was laughing my way through when I read the questions. Fill in the blanks some more..Heez..Its like understood that IT never mix well with me. Of all the test, think Im only confident in OM. Thanks to my dearest Honey here. Her notes were useful and straight to the point. No need to make my own notes. Asheh!! Budak AD katakan..Not looking forward to getting the results next week..

So went to Orchard with Ver and Wawa. I wore a dress!! Haha..It will be like the 1st and last time I wore one. Felt so bimboish. Well, that was our aim right, Wawa? We planned to like totally dress up like totally bimbo with full blown make-up for today..Thank god I didnt look like a mInah coz my make up wasnt thick..Heez..The one person I wanted to like 'impress' so much didnt see me only someone else. But if cant get Babyboi, then Lebby will do the trick..*grins* Everyone said I was so pretty..Haha kembang semacam man!! So tired. Kept walking non stop and she went on a shopping spree. Spent more than $70 altogether.. Some people spend money like theres no tomorrow.. Wanted to get the Surfbabe beg but later like triplets. Honey has the beg and Wawa just bought the beg. But its like so cute and Im cuter. Haha.. Ooh..Guess who I saw at PS? Ahmad IShak!! The yer kak? yer abang? guy!! Hehe..He so buncit..

Saw Xiao Pei today. Actually at first I didna know it was her. I was commenting that this girl look like Emily but wasnt lah. Then the girl turned, looked at me and grinned and I was like, Shit, I know this person? Who is she? The girl came close and I still dont know who. When she stood in front of me then I recognized her. She was from Jurong Sec too..The military band leader. She's so freaking thin. Not that she was fat to begin with but you know that there's thin and thin? She's the latter. Heez..Some people eat a lot and never gain. Lucky them..Cakap jer nak exercise, nak jalan pun susah..Translate: Say only want to exercise, walking already difficult..

So sleepy..Might be sleeping after watching Survivor. Did you watch Trista and Ryan's wedding? So grand dont you think? But I really wonder whther they really love each other specially Ryan..Does he really love her? And sometimes I find Trista like an attention seeker a bit..Its just me so dont get defensive..The morons must be having a 'blast' at ATC camp right now. So fun..Get to be the youngest for 2 days!!

Eating chapati with keema..Nak??

Poot poot poot

2004-02-28T19:19:00.000+08:00

Feeling the need to calm my racing nerves..Only 1 more day before this soul of mind will be ungulfed in the flames of reality, faith, trust and intellect..Heez, my mind is overload and may malfunction anytime soon. Get a grip girl! We can make this work!

So sad..My poor Jon didna get into the next round of AI..Will miss his sweet nerdish looks that just mealts my heart into molten lead..I do have a fetish for blurrish and nerdish looking guys..Mcm sleneger sikit2.. I read Berita Harian today and there was this feature on Siti Nurhaliza. Eww eww eww..International artiste? Hello..she aint that good enough..Sorry to those Siti's fans out there. Im not a fan and never will be. Honestly, she's a bit over-rated..Maybe a lot. She like created this standard of how girls should be, sweet and innnocent as candy yadda yadda yadda..That's just my 2 cents worth..

I know Im way behind schedule on the projects but guys cut me some slcak here kay? Im trying my best to get really good grades this semester and really am changing but Im still disorganized. Im so sorry. You know Im good, fast and dependable so I'll give you 200 times more ok?

On Thursday, Mummy made me call Warna again. So malu. I didna know the segement was about love until I was on air. Kak Su was asking, "So macam mana Nora (of coz I didna give me real name) bahagikan masa untuk cinta?" And I was like a sick schoolgirl who giggled her way through my 20 secs of air time. Heez

I wanna watch HONEY!! This Wampatan watched without me! And this Minah will be watching with Mr. Hadi. It seems like I'll be watching alone then unless anyone of you would like to accompany this sweet girl here to the movies? *winks* Yesterday studied with Minah. And it was one of the most funniest night to remember. Minah kept laughing and laughing and I had to smell her smelly sandals. Hahaa..wouldnt want to elaborate on that.

Suzy!!!!!!! Thanks for dropping by!! Ada rindu sama gue??

Os results were out. How did you young and fresh secondary school leavers do? Its been two long years since I last left JSS..Neways, going back to memorizing useless facts soon. So might not hear from me again till Friday. Want to eat again. Mommy made Sheperd's Pie. Yummy..

What would you do?

2004-02-26T10:32:00.000+08:00

Yoo hoo..Im now in the application lab waiting for this Minah here to reach school. Say meet at 10 but at 10.10 msg me say baru nak keluar rumah. Aisey man.. Watch soccer ah yesterday? Haha..I came school a bit late today like at 8.30 and then our place taken already by this guy. Hum chim peng ah..He using the power plug ther which actually cannot be used because one time Obasan got say cannot used. Speaking of Obasan, yesterday someone's clean recoed got a bit of color in it huh? Tsk tsk tsk..

Hehe..so motivated to study yesterday..Coz NKF was there!! He looked so cute in his bermudas and polo tee. We were like practically breathing the same air..OMG..what have I turned into?? Anyway, he didnt ignore me wchich I actually expected him to. Oh, someone got a new secret admirer huh? How dare you? Matthew messaged her out of the blue. I mean its like not they were close in the first place. Heez..yah dammit I admit Im jealous..Haha..but dont you think he likes you? I think he does..Maybe fell for you Kyoko Fukada likeness..*pukes*

Watched American Idol yesterday? That group was pretty good aii? I just melted when Jon sang. Fine, others were better but he just looked so adorably nerdish and selenger and dont he remind you of Brian Littrel? So hard to pick only 2 from the group. And yah I think Im crazy to wake up so damn early yesterday morning just to watch Real Madrid and Bayern Munich. I could have been sleeping or 'studying' or even complete my report which I still have not done so sorry Paul!! All that lost sleep is wirth it I think to see Iker, Carlos and Ballack. Carlos was so cute doing that 'hoppy' thingy after he scored. Im so happy that the moronic twins will be gone for 3 days at Ubin for their ATC camp. No more irritating flies. :)

Just a question for those males out there. If ever you know that a girl likes you or have a crush on you, what will your reaction be? Act as per normeal, ignore her or what?

Triple H Look-a-like

2004-02-24T19:46:00.000+08:00

Yeay..Finished 2 chapters of HRM today!! *clap clap*..But going to do another 2. Wasted so many hours today. All because of doing the HRM project which took like 4 hours wchich we only really 'did' for 1/2 an hour. Lindsey lah, show me irrelevant stuff. But at least we are going somewhere. Pp so mean! Ask me to do so many parts like the introduction, the adoption policies, recommendations and conclusions. I still need to edit for grammar you know!! Anyway, just want to know your comments on my group's topic: Singapore's Experience with Foreign Talents. So yah, help me out on this ok?

Later tonight got Smallville. Missed last week episode. What happened ah? No, Im not a Smallville fan, its just that Tom Welling is so cute. Channel 5 not showing any good shows lately. They moved Without a Trace to like 3 am and who's gonna watch it? Its a damn good show like CSI which uses brain and intellect which I know someone doesnt have. Speaking of which, how did the soccer match go? Did Abeng's team win anything? I should have been there you know to distract the opponents with my erm..firearms? Haha..later tonight got football right?

I saw someone who look like Triple H. Serious Im not kidding. Me and her were in the co-op, trying to find snacks, laughing like a bunch of goons when at the counter there was this 3 guys. This big one turned around to look at us and I tried hard to control my initial reaction of shouting "Triple H!!" Serious freaking damn serious he looked like H. The nose and the eyes and hair. The hair is when you know H's hair is still short and looked more like brown instead of blond (neways, H's hair so girly)..MAn..didna know that we have a resident H here..

Nurul have not called me yet to tell me whether she's been discharged or not. I wanst that surprised though. I mean we are not on stable grounds yest but hey this miss here took the first step though it wasnt my fault. She has not apologise but I still tried to talk to her. Its not my fault if she doesnt clap her hands too..

Coming to school at 10 to study OM..Minah please teach me..Haah...

Students wary now of illegal music downloads...

2004-02-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

File-sharers are scared off by news of NUS and NTU undergrads being fined for unlawful activity

By Natalie Soh , Straits Times
20 Feb 2004

Earlier this week, at least 25 students were reported to have been hauled up by the National University of Singapore (NUS) and Nanyang Technological University (NTU) for illegally sharing or downloading music.

NUS fined 20 students $200 each, while NTU fined at least five. NTU did not say how much its students were fined.

Fines aside, many undergraduates were scared off by the fact that the perpetrators were caught by the universities, with the help of copyright owners. 'I'm not touching Kazaa for a while now,' said Ms Low.

One junior college student said that her mother panicked when she read the story in The Straits Times on Wednesday, and made her promise not to 'do anything stupid' and delete Kazaa and BearShare - software programs that allow file-swopping over the Internet - from her computer at home.

'She's concerned that it will get into my permanent record,' said the 17-year-old student, who did not want to be identified.

Tracking an illegal downloader is easy, say sources. Anyone who opens a shared folder on Kazaa, Morpheus or any other file-swopping network can be identified.

The Recording Industry Association of America, which kicked off the drive to catch and punish those who download music illegally, has used several methods in its investigations, such as automated tools that look for copied files.

It has also used features within programs like Kazaa to take screen shots - digital pictures - of all the files available in a person's shared folder. It then uses these as evidence in US lawsuits.

There is also software that records the Internet address associated with a computer that is sharing one of the copyrighted songs the organisation is investigating.

The NUS and NTU told The Straits Times that they had received complaints from copyright owners and specific Internet Protocol addresses of the offending computers.

From there, it was a simple matter of tracking the owners of the computers down, or checking which student had logged on at the time.

Students are warned that file-sharing and illegal downloading are definite no-nos, and they have to sign a computer usage policy form acknowledging this.

'They have no excuse to say that they did not know after signing,' said Mr Low Kin Kiong, vice-president of IT services at NTU.

If caught, students can be fined several hundred dollars, have their computer accounts suspended and, in extreme cases, be suspended or expelled from school.

Though many have been scared off, a few recalcitrant undergraduates are continuing to swop music, confident that they would not be caught.

'Come on, there are so many of us doing this. They can't catch us all,' said an NUS student.

'It's all an initial fear. If people don't get hit by disciplinary action after this, it will all return to normal after two weeks.'

To people like him, the chief executive officer of The Recording Industry Association of Singapore, Mr Edward Neubronner, had this to say: Illegally downloading music is tantamount to stealing.

'You won't go into a CD shop and steal a CD, would you? But that's what you're doing if you illegally download or share a music file.

'It is disappointing that despite our strong focus on education, there are still students who continue to engage in such activity with no regard for the consequences.

'However, if it takes a stick to get everyone's attention and if that's what it takes to stop people from stealing and get the message across, then we will continue to take legal action.'
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so what is this telling me?? Comments appreciated

What a sucky day

2004-02-23T18:06:00.000+08:00

Such a bloody humid day! Just got back from doing project at school. DAmnn, instead of a 45 min journey home, it took like 1hr plus. Left school at like 4.40 reach home at 6. Tell me, sapa tak bingit??!! So many 74s around and not a single freaking 154. If I know I wouldnt have crossed the bridge man. Tomorrow doing project again at 1. So if you're Lindsey, Wawa or Timmy OR MY DEAREST Pp this is for you all: MEET AT ONE O'CLOCK AT THE SAME PLACE WE WENT. BLK 72 LEVEL 3. AND NO YOU CANT BE LATE!!

But a bit happy because I took the same bus with him. No not MytyTahu or Kong but this anonymous cute guy whom I took bus with almost every day for the past year. First time go home with him. Heh, he so cute wearing that tee. But I met MytyTahu too. He looked good in his G2000 long sleeved black vneck shirt and that tight jeans of his. Haha! A fuuny yet not thing happened. Wawa went to the toilet and discovered her period came. And she doesnt have one nor did I. So she went down to buy a whole pack which she put in this transparent plastic bag. And when she went to the toilet, Pp said," Eh Chingwei very the what leh." Haha..Its like to us its a common thing and not malu in front of our friends. But Pp was unlike any guy. Usually a 'normal' guy will just keep quiet right but he go and voice it ouy.

Honey must be having a blast at Sentosa right now. Biarkan kau nanti lagi hitam..Haha..When's our turn?? Tests are like next week and Im seriously dont feel a shit about it. I think I screwed my Spanish test and my NSA. What are the 3 wireless device you can connect to a network? I put laptops, palmtops and handphones which I dont think is the correct answer. And all the essay questions I just answer in 1 short paragraph. Tu ah kau Qin, who ask you to pick Business IT?? Tell me now and tell me quick.

Later have tuition with Rena and Crystal. So lazy. Anyway, Im coming to school at 8 tomorrow. Yah I know like a freaking moron coming to sch so early during the break..Anyone wants to join me?

New Layout

2004-02-23T09:38:00.000+08:00

Hehe..Instead of studying for like my test, here I am slogging away to create a new skin..How? Its Beyonce and it's in pink..Lovely dont you think? I wanted one frm Marina but there's something wrong with her codes and the pictures which she hosted. So, comments comments..It's still under consturction!!

Back by Popular Demand

2004-02-20T17:31:00.000+08:00

In the Internet cafe with her. Yes, first time using this cafe in my 2 years here. All because of that someone who's a freak by the way. Haha..teach me useless things..

Yes yes I know its been a freaking one week that Ive last since updated. Mainly the reason is that Ive been so busy revising, cramming my head with last minutes tips for my two tests. Speaking of them, I think I totally screwed it all up..Ok, the first one was IPT, some programming stuff using Java. Overall I had like 50% confidence but the worst thing happened to me that had never happened in my 13 years of school life. My mind failed on me. Yes. Blank. Nada. And the question was an easy one. It asked us to write out what the message will appear on the Applet format and I was like what the f*ck was an Applet. I left it blank. 20 freaking marks gone just like that. After that test, me and wawa went to West mall to eat dinner. Because of her normal eating habits which take a long time to come back, I think Ive gained weight. :(..

So we had a good talk ya about life, friendships and stuff and I felt a bit depressed talking about OSI. (that's smelly bastard's new nick!!) How would I feel if I were him? Hated by others, no friends and nothing. Probably that was the reason I talked a bit with him on MSN. Shut up Qinwei.

There's so many things that I wanted to type it out. Funny, when I have no time to blog so many things to talk about but when theres lotsa time, no movement from theses short fingers of mine. Haha..Anyway, to you: Stop pretending sometimes. If you dont like things or what just say so. Its hurting me because I dont know when you are being true when Im talking to you, when Im doing stuff with you. I feel weird and comfortable with you but why am I talking about you? I dont know. Haha..you're just another useless datum inside this empty brain of mine. Empty doesnt mean Brainless!!

So lazy to type somemore although the keyboard is so nice to feel unlike mine at home. Oh yah, my poor baby lappy is still in the hospital. Speaking of which, Nurul is in the hospital. Kidney infection. Dont know the results yet. She's healthy and yet these things happen to her. There's also Rizam, who met with an accident last year and had internal bleeding and in a coma for 2 days. Usop said that he is back to square one meaning like everything's erased. He dont remember much and he talks like a small kid. So sad, he's only 19. He was pillioning his friend who just passed his license. His fren got away with a broken arm and Rizam got away with brain damage. If only I knew this would happen (like premonition). I magine if you could know the future. Like if I know Rizam will be like this would have I told him or let nature takes its course?

Theres still a lot going on in my mind like slamming American Idol and Trista's Wedding but no time. Meeting my sister at Shaw in 15 minutes time. But the journey takes like 1/2 hour, so yah maybe tonight. More on me, the drama queen.

Corruption, Old sweetheart and Cowards

2004-02-12T13:46:00.000+08:00

My laptop's spoiled. The Windows program is corrupt. And I did not even do anyhting to it. I even eleted most of my songs and there's still plenty of space left. The message keep saying please repair the program by inserting the setup disk. Arrgh..My pictures will be gone!!

Superbly bored right now. In an empty lab waiting for Lindsey to polish up the powerpoint for our presentation today. Didna went for lecture so my class starts at 3 but I came at 11. Es loco? No se, lociento.

So guess who I saw in the bus this morning? Its one of my old sweetheart, Fahsha!! I think he recognizes my face but couldnt remember how he knew me. What's the dilly about my man, Fahsha? Well, 4 years ago, i worked in my friend's shop. You know the usual tummy filling like nasi ayam, eopk-epok, goreng pisang and other stuff. It was during the fasting period. So I noticed that this cute guy who often stop by the shop about 3-4 daysa week. He's cute but a bit on the sknny side. Every worker ther knows that I have this weeny bit of a crush on him so everytime he came, they ask me to serve him. Anyway, one day he introduced himself to me like what's his name, what's mine, how do you dos and the usual stuff. Except that he doesnt know my age. He's 4 years older by the way. SO in a way we're friends right? One day, which I can still remember clearly, he handed me a piece of paper. And yes Honey. heard you going '"Hmm,,sounds familiar." Yep. He didnt ask for my number or ask me out. He asked me to be his messenger and pass that slip of paper to Sarah instead. Fine. Sarah's a pretty girl and almost any red blooded man will fall for her. My heart was crushed. Disappointment leaving a heavy trace in my heart. And he had the cheek to call me at night asking about Sarah. C'mon lah, want to get to know her, ask yourself. Dont give this girl false hope. He lives near me but I seldom see him a round my neighbourhood. Which I think its a good thing. No, I dont have any grudge against him. It's just that, you know. i have feelings. Haha, Im suprised by this admission. OOoops!!

What's wrong with my previous entry? Well, my homegirl got spammed on her tagboard by anonymouse assholes who dont have the guts to say it right to the face. What's wrong with your dickies and brains people? That's not called a real word trash. its more like a cowardly actions by leaving no trace of yourself. Gf, dont worry ok? They might hate you but I still love you. Uugh. Im forced to say that. Ha, but at least we have a suspect right now. Is it possible for us to find out who the freaks behind this childsih games by using their IP address? I swear, if I find out the truth, Im going to do a 'Rikishi" on them.

Hurry up lah. My necks sore and Im getting sleepy.

Go Baby!!

2004-02-12T08:36:00.000+08:00

Wow gf..U go gurl!! That's the way to show 'em gonk what you are made off!! You have the right to go apeshit baby. You give what they deserve. They aint gonna bring you down. They are a bunch of pathetic litlle prissy bitches who aint deserve a bullshit place in this world. Show 'em what you've got!

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2004-02-10T19:30:00.000+08:00

Damn ah Parinya..Go post anyhow on my blog. Anyway, the latest update is that the person who take Wawa's phone called her dad and wanted to give the phone back. Damn. After she suspended her line for two weeks. Haha. If I were the girl, I would not give the phone back. Ha, sorry but that's the truth. I mean c'mon face it. None of you will give it back right?

Right now at Veron's house. Want to complete the UML diagrams, 24 by the way which I must do by tomorrow. See lah, dso harworking. Last minute work. Anyway, we girls not that scared cause we have my Bong Bong to help out. Veron's house nice leh. Her floor so shiny. I feel like farting right now but I scared if I fart, she chase me out of her room. Haha. So tired. Later will have 1 hr journey home and what am I suppose to do during that 1 hr?

Lindsey wanted to cancel her old line but I dont know why she was so scared to call the operator that she ask Qinwei to call. The operator was freaking funny. Ask stupid question like why you want to cut the line, want to try another line and you know the usual persuading sales. At last, Qinwei was so pissed that she said she was going overseas and do not need a phone right now. Even that, the operator still ask some idiotic question.

Had a heart attack when I learned that one of my friends was getting engaged. He's about the same age as me and the girlfriend is one year older. They are getting engaged on the 30th of February. Was so sad that I called up some of my firnds to confirm it. And I mean almost like all my network friends. Even she was so sad that she asked me to confirm it. Until my dearest Sarah pointed out, "Qin, where in the world February has 30 days?" So meaning I was like bloody tricked by Rosida . Damn lah she. Make me so sad that Usop getting engaged.

hahaha

2004-02-10T11:42:00.000+08:00

this is parinya posting in syeeqeen's blog!!!!!!!!!!!1
qinwei lost her handphone again...today!

Bleaurgh

2004-02-09T18:14:00.000+08:00

Ok Ok..I know its been a while since I last updated. Let's see, nothing much happen the last three days. On Friday went out with my homegurl (feeling gangsta' ka pa?) to solve her dilemma. Here's the funny thing. On Wednesday my gurl said she need my help to solve a dilemma. So I was like, "Bring it on. Im all ears." So she told me about this need to solve her problem. Here I am thought it was a big mess and it turns out she was debating whether to buy the Bodyshop face powder or one from Red Earth. Yup, I heard you going, "That's her problem?" Haha..End up she buying from Bodyshop. More details can be found at here.

Feeling the pressure of the mounting projects. So might not update for a while. I'll update when the time's right. Word.

More Heartbreaks

2004-02-05T15:55:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Daddie!!! *smooch* Hehe, so old already ah? Which means Im old too, haha..So where will we go makan this weekend?? Hehee

Someone had been passing off my hp number. I have been receiving calls asking for Derry/Derrick. It's really getting on my nerves. Like today, 3 calls all from the same woman asking for Derrick. Its so bloody irritating. The third time she called, I asked, "Are you sure yiy have the right number?" And she said, "Yhis is 91******, right?" to which I said, "Yeah" and she said, "There's no Derrick right?" Damn right theres no Derrick. Arrgghh!! I have a feeling this Derrick or whoever is trying to run away from that woman but Derrick honey, be a man and dont give anyone's number anyhow. Or maybe my friends are playing a prank on me. Who knows? I swear I'll find out the truth!

Today was my school's open house so there were many kiddos, adek mat-mat whos so trying to be cool with their tapered jeans and caps but its all good. Let them have that feeling surround them. Rushed off after lecture to catch Cynwell in action. Yes the resident magician in our school. Pretty good I must say. Can see he was quite nervous. Ooh, and I even participate in his tricks. Duh. Just point at 4 cards only. But, overall he's quite good but cant measure up to my David Blaine or Copperfield. *ouch* That hurts BQ!! Hehe, bet you were disappointed that your trick with him was canceled. Aw, dont be sad lah. You always practice with him. You should be the bunny girl!

Did y'all watch American Idol yesterday? Yes, finally the 'yeowl' girl was kicked out. You know the fake one where Paula and Simon left the place and Randy granted the fake a green light to Hollywood? Yup the Mandy Moore look-a-like who cried when wasnt choosen and dissed the show. Sore loser. Cant wait for today's episode.

Had the debut tuition session with Crystal. My God! She cant even read the simplest sentences. and she's like K2. Man, wished some of Rena's smartness tubbed off her. Its like she cant spell, cant read. I see I have my work cut out for me.

You know, your best friend just called me up to celebrate her birthday with her. Not that I dont want to (pitiful right?), but I have tuition today and she senang senang ask me to forward it to another day. Sweetie, if you are on somewhere on top of the list I call friends, maybe I can but you are somewhere along the bottom. Im not being bitchy or what but face the facts. During primary school, we never spoke a word to each other until few weeks ago and now we're suddenly best friends? I said weekend and you said not shiok anymore so its your loss because Im a busy woman and I dont make exceptions that easily.

To Nurul: Girl, although we arent on talking terms yet, I just want you to know that Im here. Always skeptical but you if you ever need a shoulder, I'll help you get Trefor's shoulder. Haha. Wandi's an asshole for treating you that way. Its a good thing you broke it off. *smooch*

To Qinwei: From what you said, I know you are still missing him. You sacrificed so much, gave so much (which some things I dont know till today!! *smacks*) and get nothing in return, but you know that this step is the best. For you, for him, for Germaine and for Wee. He's nothing more than a painful lesson. A jerk yes definitely but I promise that you will have the last laugh. He's going to regret letting you go, even though he doesnt love you at all.

To Veron: Although we seldom talk about this kind of intimate things together, just want you to know that letting go of the past makes the heart heal faster. Treasure him ok. I like him.

To Haneyza: Dont worry. I promise you that your dilemma will be solved tomorrow. *grins*

No topic

2004-02-03T20:52:00.000+08:00

Damn..Woke up late to watch the debut of Police and Thief..Haha..Poor me..

Well, guess what? I was locked out of my house today..See, I didna bring my house keys and I went home quite early today, though of getting a nice nap..But my mom was not at home! She sent my sister for her monthly check-up at the hospital. And when I called Mom, she said that she had not seen the doctor yet which means she wont be coming home until 4 hours later. Fine. Laugh all you can. Make me look like a fool sitting outside my door. So, I though of going to the McDonalds at superbowl but decided agaisnt it becuase it will be too freaky. So off I go to Jurong Point where I sat in the library for 2 hours reading a book. Wanted to borrow books but I didna pay my fines so restricted my status. Finally bought the Revlon Lipgloss in Champange Punch. Such a nice color. Thought of getting Pink Lightning but decided it didnt suit me. Was like freaking hungry, sleepy and needed to shit all the time.

Haney got to see Hidayat at JP!!! AAARRGGHHH!!

Went to Queensway with her to find the Adidas bag she's been hunting for so long. You know like the bowling bag but in bronze? Yup, found it and she bought it. Me wanna buy too but no cash lah. Saw this Puma bag too. Anybody want to buy for me? *winks prettily* And as morons, we ate the 25 cent ice cream at McDonalds and I saw Cheng Jie. 'Jual Mahal'. Pretend not to see me. Oh well, fine. Like as if I was excited to see you. So many solo there.

Ooh!! Funny and stupidest thing happen today. See, we wanted to be 'guai' for once and decided to go for the 9 o'clock lecture. So, we were there on time and went inside the lecture hall and went to the last row. Then I looked around and recognize nobody. Even the lecturer is like year 1 lecturer and the people there were staring at us. Then it hit me. We were in the wrong lecture hall!! We came out asap laughing our assess off! So malu man. So, thought the lecture was cancelled so we sat in the canteen until Matthew said, "there is no NSA lecture today." We were like why? And when we checked the timetable it was actually NSA tutorial!! Ha, thank God no tutorial today or we already screwd our attendance. Qinwei even tapped her card!!

Jerks in This World Pt 1

2004-01-31T20:39:00.000+08:00

Ok..firstly I need to shout for losing out!! AAAARRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!..Hmm..That's better.

Woke up late today and missed the first part of Bionoc Woman. I know its lame but what the heck. Anyways, received some hot and juciy gossip today. My God, sounding like a gossip-monger. Back to the story, this afternoon receoved a call from Wawa. She told me that Nurul called her and as usual pouring out her sorrows to Wawa. (I wonder why she still has no guts to call me.) She was telling about what an asshole Wandi is. The story is that last night after sending Nurul home as usual, Wandi actually went out and picked up a girl and played pool with her. Yes, only the both of them. You might think what's wrong with that but I'll give you 3 reasons. 1, he picked her up real late at midnight and played until 2+. 2, the girl is Nurul's best friend. I guess her name is Zakiah. 3, when Zak asked Wandi whether Nurul and him were together, he said no. See? I cant believe he would do such a thing now that Nurul and him are together again. it was he who wanted to patch up with Nurul and after doing so, did sucha thing to Nurul? Even though Nurul and I are still not on normal talking terms but I still do pity her and feel so sorry. That's not all. On Wandi's bithday chalet which Nurul was supposed to go, Wandi brought a different girl I think to replace Nurul and according to Nurul's friends there, Wandi and that girl was all over each other. I know. Bastard. Ooh, and when Nurul confronted him, he had the audacity to just apologize and said he still want Nurul to be his girlfriend. Hello?? It's like what, you want to string Nurul as a spare tyre? *smacks* I guess Nurul called Wawa because Wawa has gone through the same thing right?

Well, not only there are bastards in this world but bitches as well. When I meant bitch, they are called sluts. First, theres that Germaine bitch. Secondly is the girl who dared broke my cousin's heart, not once not twice but five times. Being a softie he is, he cant help that. Well, yesterday my eldest cousins came to my house. Me n sis were not home yet and only reached home at ten. Haha..my guy cousin, Shaf was sitting in the living room alone while the rest were at the dining table including my sis. So, it gave me an opportunity to speak to Abg Shaf. Yes, ok I'll admit it. I have a major crush on my cousin since he taight me factorization 4 years ago. He's handsome, fair, had adorable dimples and smart. Anyway, I was like asking questions casually to him (smart eh?) then we got on to the topic of relationships. It was my first ever long conversation with him. Oh by the way, he's 29, single and shy. Anyone want? He was telling me about his first love and how she treated him like a fool. I dont want to go to the details now because my youngest sister wants to use the computer and fight with her freaking boyfriend. So I swaer Im telling you all that I can remeber by Monday ok? Keep checking back here for updates on Shaf.

If only I had his photo...*sighs*

Oh Dear

2004-01-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

All my fishes are dying. Its not because of dirty water or anything. In fact, just changed water 2 days ago.. They are comitting suicide!! Toilet, is blind and going to flip. His back tail is stuck together and he keeps half floating..I think its because he was stuck at the filter or something somewhere around this afternoon becuase this mornig Toilet was ok. No name is sick again. White spots are appearing on his body. Its all Daddy's fault. Dont wanna take care of them..Boo hoo..

To Wawa: At least you should make the first move to smile at him mah..Just let him think that you like him.. Haha..Is Nicholas there?

Sexy Neck, Durian Paste and the Scrotum Guy

2004-01-29T17:59:00.000+08:00

Eating the durian paste PP gave me yesterday. Yummy!!

Yesterday was a demoralizing day for my group. The tuto, Mr. Lim Shi Chee (who looked like the minister 'i cant remember the name') rejected out group's idea. So that menas we have to find some other organization to analyze. Again. But at least we have other alternatives to fall back on now, right? Chin up!

Saw Nicholas today. My God!! He is so sexy..He was wearing this long black V-neck shirt and he never looked so sexy before. He had a haircut and man am I melting right now. *literally melts* Even Wawa finally admitted that he's hot and she says she's going to admire him from now on. Haha, see I told you I am never wong about guys. Sat beside Sean and Terence today. Sean is botak now and Terence eats like a pig. Wait..Dont all guys eat like a pig?

My mom was mad yesterday. She forced me to call into the radio station (Malay) and make a dedication. She cant call becuase it was only for students. I couldnt hear very well what the deejay is. I dont even know her name in the first place! I dont listen to Malay stations that much. Anyways, the deejay, Kak Su or something was asking me lotsa questions like which school I was, what course you know the ususal stuff. Then she ask me, what CCa I join. For those who know me, I dont participate anymore in these kinds of things.Retired already. So I just said the MMS (Muslim/Malay Society) Haha..what a laugh man. Kak Su asked me what we did there and as usual I bullshitted saying how we plan functions like picnic every month. I sure hope nobody recognizes me..

Haiz..do you ever had that feeling that you wished this girl was a boy instead? Its not that Im lesbian or anything (Im straight and dont have anything against les/homo/gays) but I told only 2 of my friends that if 'she' was a boy, I will definitely fall for him. Haha..Im crazy. Oh God..

PP was telling us this story about a guy and his steel balls. An iron rod was embedded through his nether parts and he appeared on Tv and told the audience that it still works. Haha..The funny part was that when the man ask the doctor how (cause he was scared that he 'cant make it'), the doctor replied "I've put them back on."

Todo sólo otra vez

2004-01-26T21:37:00.000+08:00

Guess it's only me again huh? Again fighting against the storm..Never knew what absolute bliss is

Had a major bout of PMS yesterday..Was feeling so shitty that I totally and emotionally broke down. Stressed. That word doesnt seem enough to convey the message that I feel. Tears though little was shed could never seem to wash away the feelings I felt deep inside. Por que? I dont know why. So many things are going on in my life and there never seems to be enough of me to go around. Im no superwoman though I try hard to be. Have you just had that day that all doesnt seem right to you. All of this are not real and suddenly all the supressed emotions in you seems to just pull you down even deeper into the tormenting currents. Maybe its just me, blame it on my depression. Imagine that, only 19 and Im suffering form depression.

Did you guys watch the MIchael Jackson thingy yesterday? Do you think he did it? I think he's innocent. Give the poor guy a break. All those hounding on his private life is not going to get you anywhere. You are just hurting other people. Is that what you major role in this life is for? Hurting other people. Get a life man. Let him grow up. Even if he was to be found guilty, I dont blame him. He had a traumatized childhood. He didna grow up as 'normally' as us insane humans. All his life, his growth was scrutinized closely by the media and distorted. He is just still a kid inside. I understands how he feels. All he wanted was acceptance, love and kids. I pity his kids. Im afraid they will grow up pressurized. Can you imagine how lonely their life is right now? They dont go to day care, normal schools or even have any friends except for their family members. What kind of life is that for a child? They dont get to experince life. They can only view it from this thin veil and not allowed to touch it all all..

Thongs and Thongs

2004-01-26T14:16:00.000+08:00

Suprised to see home so early? Well, Wawa didna come today so nobody to rot with. Even Veron went off. Even though did project, still reached home at 1. Anyways, had a bit of trouble waking up this morning. It was such a nice weather to snuggle under the covers and dream far far away. Had a bit of laughter today in Spanish class. See, we were pronouncing some spanish vocabulary about clothes. Like el treja is a suit. So Señor Vince was going on and on asking us to guess what the Spanish words for certain type of clothings were. Then he said, "¿Como se llama thongs en Español?" And I was like what? Underwear? And he was like, C'mon class, whats the spanish name for it. By then, most of the girls were giggling and he said, "Ok, you guys are looking at me funny" and what he exactly meant was slippers or to be exact sandals. He asked, Dont you guys call it thongs here for slippers. And we were like NO!! And he said that (like i didna know) in America the sexy underwear that the ladies wear is called thongs. Haha..He was red a bit on the ears. Then he explained that when he first came to Np, the IS director was telling him of the school's dress codes. He was told that he cant wear shorts and thongs. And Señor was like "ok, I dont wear thongs anyway." Haha, could see how he was mistaken thongs for thongs. We dont call it thongs here, do we?

No More Goldfish

2004-01-24T17:35:00.000+08:00

Oh man! FHM Top 100 games took out my fishy game. You know the game where you feed the goldfish till they get bigger, collect the gold coins to buy weapons and shoot the aliens? Its not there anymore! No more goldfish! Instead, they replaced it with I dont know what the hell boring games. Damn. What games am I supposed to play now? I had already completed all the levels and waiting for the deluxe version and they have to do this to me. What the..Damn damn damn..Its the only thing that reminds me of Nippon. They should have taken out Fulltime Killer instead. Arrgh! Anyone knows any great links to great online games?

My Baby Nippon

2004-01-23T19:33:00.000+08:00

My baby Nippon died 2 days ago. Am so sad and depressed because theres no more baby Nippon to talk to and feed the most to. No more smooching and kissess to pass to. If you're wondering what the hell Im talking about, its my fish named Nippon. My ultimost fav fish who died without even saying goodbye. And there were no visible marks or abuse on my baby's body. He's only 2 years old! He's round and fat..He cant grow big like normal fish but can grow only for the top and the bottom. Get what I mean? Like he's like a balloo. I found him hanging figuratively upside down. So I tried to turn him over and he succeeded but only for a while. There must be seriously something wrong with his top fins or maybe he was trying to impress me with his clowinsh act so I wasnt really bothered by it. Then the next day, he was still upside down. I tried turning him over again and talked to him and after that I went to the kitchen for a while. When I came back my mum was staring at the tank and said that Nippon is dead. And I said no way and she prodded him with a stick and sure nuff he was hard. And I was the last living human my baby Nippon saw. I miss him so much.

And he's not the only fish that died. His neighbour, Mulut Senget also died. It must be the water or something or its Mulut Besar who fought him. That greedy fish! Always sucking in the most amount of food. It could either be Sticky. I dont know. All my fishes are dead or in their last critical days.

Been pigging out as usual these lat few days. Oh, thank you my fav Jlo wannabe, Haniza for that treat. Give me a few more days and I'll finish doing your blog ok?

Stress and more stress

2004-01-20T14:14:00.000+08:00

Instead of warming my bum in Human Resource lecture, here I am stuck in the computer lab trying my dranest to complete my online tuttorial. What the fuck is attributes, methods and class man? I have already admitted that when it comes to IT stuff, Im a complte bimbo. And i broke my thumb nail. Not the usual scrapping but my half of my nail is gone and I mean really half. My left thumb has never looked so ugly before. Wait. It had. 2 years ago, i slammed a heavy door on the same thumb which resulted in bleeding and blood clotting for a month.. My thumb is so numb now.

IMy nose is feeling its due now. It cant take the strain of sitting in an aircon room for more than an hour. Dont blame me, blame my nose. Oh, and Benjamin is just sitting around 5 feet away from us. Yes. In the same room. We're breathing in the same air. Haha..Im crazy. Indulge me. Did project early today. I wonder what it is with guys and time. When they make appointment, they usually dont make it on time. Can you tell me the reason why?

In 2 years time, Im going to be kicked out of my room and have to make a makeshift room in the study room? Why? Coz mi hermana is getting hitched and following Malay traditions, the male must sleep in the girls' house for a few weeks or maybe months. And as Im sharing a room with my sister, I cant possibly share the room with the tow lovey sick birds right? So mummy says, I have to convert the study room into my room. Imagine that? So many things to do, so little time. Im getting kinda bored of school already. I saw Isa today. My God. Gay. Blond hair and tapered jeans. Why are all the hansome men gay? Is Benjamin gay?

Happy chinese New Year!! Hong Bao ike lai!!

2004-01-17T13:50:00.000+08:00

Hmm..Nothing much just that tomorrow Kak Linda's engagement function. Yeah!! You're the first, see? Haha..Congratulations..Might be going there today to help out but we'll see..

Qinwei, qinwei..I really pity you arh? Now you so paisey to stare at Benjamin already arh? Now that he and gang knows we've been stalking them..Hahaha..First it was Xiangwei, now Benjamin. Lets see who's next. But in a way good la coz I get to harbour my crush on Nicholas without him knowing now that Xiangwei thinks you like him. Thank you so much. *smooch*

Went to Bugis yesterday follow that moron buy her clothes. Never even say thank you arh? Hahaha..Took a super long 1 hr journey. My butt was cramping the whole way there. Im so proud of you now that you've started to eat again. Its called going back to normal. Keep it going ok?

I met one of my closer guy friend yesterday. My my, becoming more handsome now huh? Still corny. He works at World of Sports at Bugis. Pity we didna see you there. And learned more information about the 'event' that was supposed to take place last year. Got fired up again it seems. Anyway, it was suay abit to see him cause I mean I was going home so I didna bother blotting my face or powder up and was having pimple outbreak and I met him. Haiz..So suay rite? He's also taking bike license at Ubi. I know its so far right? He said that at Ubi has only 8 practicals while at BBDC has 13..But its at Ubi you know. I asked about his twin brother whether he'll be taking license too and to my suprise Rashad says that Rashid is scared becuase he has a phobia or something about roads. Go figure.

Younger Men

2004-01-16T12:26:00.000+08:00

Forgot to say this yesterday but when we ate at Burger King yesterday, there was this cute cashier named Muhammad Syukur. He is absolutely handsome. Not your drop dead gorgeous like Orlando Bloom but fresh and good looking. Big eyes, a fair n smooth face, 'mampat' body means not fat, not thin but nicely plump and oh so tall. He was so cute when he smiled at me and laughed. Hahaha..Nad I bet he's younger.

Ladies, will you date a younger man? I mean I realized that older men and younger boys appeal to me. Serious. They have this 'something' that makes that them stand out against boys my age. Younger men and older men. Yum yum. But I do set a limit too. 3 years will be the limit for younger men and 10 years for older men. Hahahaa...

Sorry But Thats The Way I Am

2004-01-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

Am I that mean? I dont think so because I believe in standing up for what I think is right. No amount of apologies or phonecalls will make a difference to this amount of intense dislike I have of you right now. Im not a pushover so dont even try of making me change my mind. Im stubborn and hard headed and you just have to live with that. First thing first, you must try to find out where you go wrong. (OK by this time I had received the latest news about you). So you tell me. In the heat of the moment, what was I supposed to do? I dont know. That is between you and your 'y am i not suprised' boyfren. Dont include me. Im not and wont be a target for your anger nor your tears. Yes, I think you're the first person I turned down to use my shoulder. Congrats. I dont feel a thing when you're not around. Sorry. Im speaking the truth. Maybe Im saying all this because Im pretty still pissed off with you but what the hell..
Oh, Im the newly appointed treasurer of the class. Woo hoo. Yadda yadda. Im not the class rep, Fab.Get that clear. Im just a tai-long. Not your assistant!! And my bloody friends sa-boed me and made me a OM rep. I know!! Spoil my reputation right? See lah, people now will think differently already.
In a way I regret taking Spanish. Y? Because Orlando Bloom speaks French!!!! How am I suppose to communicate with him now? You tell me..By the way, I have a new name. Estela. It means Star. Nice? I wanted Ariela but a girl beat me to it. Then wanted Alicia but then my Senor Vince said he had an ex girlfriend named Alicia and if I were to take the name, you get the drift.
Ooohh..Trefor is WEIRD. Superbly weird man. He's like what? A guy with shaggy curls that frame a probably loose mind. Hahaha..Dont know what word to describe him. Has a whiny voice. Hahaha but nice fingernails. Clean. I like that in a guy. You know, he managed to keep himself amused for 3 whole hours in class by just sitting there not doing anything..Crazy dude. Hope that Lindsey doesnt show him my blog or he happen to chance on it by chance.
OMG!! Took a 5 min break to answer a phone call. And guess who? Its your boyfren. Clearing all your mess up. Hello? Doncha have any background? Fight your own battles lah dey. Need someone to settle it all for you. Stand up on your feet can? I cant be bothered. I was so mean to him on the phone. I was like "Ic. So? Oh. Then?" I didna speak more that 3 words at the time. An the last word I said was "Is there anything else you want to tell me?" he said no and I juz promptly hanged up. Mean? Dont think so. Im a different person today. Dont judge me by my behavior today for all time..

Too Lost In You

2004-01-14T12:59:00.000+08:00

You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try

I'm in over my head
You got under skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in

And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)

Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Falling into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

I'm going in crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can mess with me
(No one can mess with me)

Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you

I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

Cant Believe It

2004-01-13T21:37:00.000+08:00

I dont believe that you didnt even apologise to me this morning. I mean you did not even ask what your 'patch or not' boyfriend said to me. You think Im going to keep quiet? Is that so? You were like pretending everything was like normal? Well, now you know what the meaning of cold shoulder means now huh finally? You know something is wrong when I dont answer all your questions. You feel a bit weird huh? And to think I actually put off with your nonsense so early in the morning. Damn, dont you realiza that you need to apologize? So now Im branded as the Devil here? When its all your fault you just dont realize it. You think Im going to keep my trap shut becasue Im what? Afraid to face him? Hello? I can take him anywhere anytime. Im going to give you one last chance. either you buck up and say sorry to me or I promise I wont talk to you again. I can be the noisiest lady but I assure you I can also be the quietest. Take that!!

What am I Supposed To Do?

2004-01-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

Im so pissed off. Seriously farking pissed off. Hello? So now its my fault? Look whos talking lah dey. Ok so fine, I butted into the problem a bit but you have seriously no right to scold me. Because overall, my dear friend, your girlfriend gave us the permission. See, now when you are confronted by your faults you dont want to admit. Fine let me take all the blame huh? So that you dont have to see the word guilty written all over your face. Now your girlfriend is another problem. How dare you? How dare you made up a lie to protect your skinny arse? So in order not to be the guilty party, you said that I was the one. Fuck you lah Bitch! What am I supposed to do? Go on with your lie and land myself into a tight spot? If I were to expose your lie, you are going into a worser spot that you are already on. So tell me. Im supposed to be the bad girl here? Im supposed to be submissive and just accept it? I know where I did wrong but you onviously dont huh? You dont want to admit it? You want to still pretend to be innocent. You know what? I aint no pushover for nobody. Wake up and smell the coffee lah dey. You did not even apologize to me. Even talking on MSN you pretended not to know. This is not the only time you know. You owe me lotsa apologies. I am seriously 'bored' with you and your attitude. Im not going to help you again.

9 Hours To Go

2004-01-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

Haiz..Still got 9 more hours to go till I see my dear Mr. Vincent Faherty Michael. My Vince. One and only Vince. Mi senor Vince. Ti amo. Hahaha..Cant wait for tomorrow. Oohh, I hate Sundays. Y? Coz its pigging day which means stuffing myself with calories and extra fats. Like I need more. Eyeing this pair of green shoes but my younger sisters said it was uglee..
Anyway, things were a bit better dont you think? Well at least we made some progress. Is it gonna be better?

Ermm..

2004-01-10T22:22:00.000+08:00

Its been confirmed that my house has some unwanted guest. Think the exorcist. The possession. We've got the experts coming to confirm it. Woo hoo. Scary. I dont know what to make of it but its kinda wierd that IT's there right under our very noses. Im getting the chills right now. More details tomorrow. Right now Moomy and Daddy are rearranging their furniture. Seems like fengshui to me. Daddy warned Mommy not to tell me but Mommy promised me to tell the details tomorrow.

So Where Do I Stand Now?

2004-01-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

Im not sure..Or maybe I am. I know where exactly I stand now but do you know where I stand to you?? I've tried real hard, Ive made the first move..Its up to you now. Ive apologised, done all the things Im supposed to do. Im really confused right now. I feel like giving up, saying, "Ok. Fine. You know what? Let it all go to hell. No use getting depressed all over it again."
Now that everybody got someone new, Im not needed right now. Even when I need someone real bad. Ive never been the one to say what I really feel. Im a half bottler and half shouter. It hurts when I think how things are the way it is. No, Im not only talking bout someone whom I cared for before, people who are currently in my life too. Yes, thank GOD I have my friends around me but sometimes good things dont last, do they? One day, it can just change. 1 2 3 like that. What am I worth to my friends is what I always ask myself when I feel down and under.
I thank thee my Gfs for being 'patient' with me, even though Im not me sometimes. Ok fine, all the time. You guys are a source of happiness and please dont get sick of me yet. I know I may not seem that committed a friend because I dont do things that ensure the stability of our friendships coz I may seem the 'heck care' type but just want you to guys to know that I appreciate you guys who are still willing to be by my side even though Im a bitch half a time. Maybe we arent close enough or scared to get too close because we are all dealing with our own emotional breakdowns.
I need to do some soul searching. I cant face being who I am one moment and change the other second. Im so pretty farked up in the head. Always had been.

Woo Hoo

2004-01-09T20:45:00.000+08:00

Elfa is on TV for some fund raising event. Wow. Can 'naik pulak'? Haha..Must be the controversy huh? Oh well..

I realized some things no matter how you try to view it differently, the ugly truth will always surface. Oh how it reflects someone's real feelings. The facade is taking its toll on us bone weary mortals. Could we just give it up and continue life without its worries? Can we be honest finally? So tired of hanging on, knowing that any second all of that we build can just snap within seconds. Just like that. I can see it in your eyes. No more lies and fake smiles. Dont put up with me because you feel obliged to. Maybe the world will be more at peace wihtout all this foolish nonsense. Listen to you speak. Listen to me. Are we getting tired of this game yet?

Good Morning~!!

2004-01-09T08:49:00.000+08:00

Just woke up and decided to do some last minute blogging before I go and bathe. Was so freaking tired yesterday. My eyes were like drooping halfway thorughout the show "Who Wants To Steal A Million". Damn, it was so obvious that he was cheating. Its like Hello? Coughing everytime when Charles spoke the correct answer? Wonder if his throat was raw afterwards.

Went to Far East yesterday with Veron, Qinwei, Emily and Nurul. Took neocards too. Must wait for Veron to scan them first before I upload it up here first. We walked for 4 hours without stopping for a rest. Walked all the way form Far East to Heeren. And afterwards, around 5 Nurul has to leave to meet her 'not officially patched up' boifren at Central Point, Veron need to go for her Dragon Boat training and I need to be home in tme for my tuition. Ohh, Qinwei and Veron got their ears pierced. And Veron's friend said that I was a terrorist! Their idea of a terrorist was something you dont want to know.

Dreamed of You last night. We were like as before but thats not the case now in reality. So where do we stand now? I dont know either.. We'll or shall I say I should take things as they come.

Arrgghh!!

2004-01-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

Seriously, is it my damn computer or what that I cant view my blog? My format is the very pro one..not the usual blogging type.. I guess you dont know what Im talking about right? Arrggh!! Im so gonna throw away this bugging computer man..

Anyways, saw Benjamins butt this afternoon. He has no butt!! :< Its okay ladies..He cut his ponytail off but grown his goatie even longer..He looks better with the short hair but babe that goatie needs to be trimmed off..Got to see him climb walls today with that harness thingy..Yes..I can see your eyebrows going up..Hehe..Eugene looks cuter too..OOhh..Treffor will be in our class!! Nuruls hopping mad about it..Dont worry, I'll get his number for you. (He's not even that cute. Those shaggy curls and prickly beard..) BAsically nothing happened today except that finally got to see my dear BQ finally with her shockingly short hair..She looks like a boy to me but others say she look like an auntie..Haha..

Am supposed to go out tomorrow with the ladies but guess what? I have to come to sch for a bloody hour frm 2-3 pm. Yes only for an hour. tell me, which insane moron will come to school for only an hour? Why cant he pushed it earlier like say 10-11 or somewhere near there..Sigh..Now got problem. Internal. Happens every semester and its up to me to make the final decision. Again. I dont want to hurt anybody. Dont do this to me I beg thee..

Vous avez tout besoin de moi

Still Dreaming of You~

2004-01-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

Something wrong with Blogger huh? Cant seem to view my blog. Thinking of changing to Diaryland if Blogger doesnt gets its act up soon. Hehe..Did I tell you that my Mr Vince has a silver stud on his left ear? Pangster said that it made him look gay becuase its a small solver hoop but I was like, Hello? He's a lecturer for goodness skae. You cant expect him to wear the flashy ones to school. There is a dress code after all right? Cant seem to stop rambling bout him huh? Actually, I learned no new spanish words. All we did was learn about Spanish history and a bit of its culture. He keeps saying Spnaish is cool and I think his fav word is cool and crazy. He comments saying everyhing is cool r crazy. Haiz.. Is he married? Not sure because there aint no ring on his finger. Do I stand a chance then?

Off to watch Westside Story. (I know!!) Im ashamed of myself too. I hate them but the show is so ridiculous that I have to watch it..Hahaha..

Mr Vince Faherty

2004-01-05T19:51:00.000+08:00

Buenos Dias I just love my Spanish class.. No, I dont regret taking Spanish. Why? Coz my Spanish teacher is gorgeous!! Not that drop-dead gorgeous but *melts*. He's so cute, great build, nice eyes, and a cute little butt with a charming smile to go with *sighs*. He is fun & a nice guy. He has this great personality, very approachable and hellava guy. His name is Mr Vince Faherty or Vincent Faherty Michael. He is only a couple of yrs older, Half Italian & hails frm the US N he loves to party!! He's a cool dude. I'm falling for him. Haha... 0_o

Wanted to watch Scary movie 3 2dae but Nurul has the VCD so wanted to find another movie. Wanna watch LOTR but the girls dun wana.. Wawa wanted to watch Sch Of Rock but me and Nurul watched it already. So after surfing the net, we decided on Haunted Castle. Mind you, we wanted to watch Haunted Mansion, the Eddie Murphy one. So we didna redoze the difference so we went all the way to great world & had a shock wen each ticket is $11. The vendor said coz it was an Imax Movie (3-D movie) Blah..Blah..Blah.. I was so fucked up when it turns out that it was the wrong movie. It was about this bloody ass wannabe rockstar and have sumthing to do with immortacity & other shit and what really gets me off is that it lasted for a bloody 45 mins 45 mins can you believe it. Fuck sia. $11 for a cheapskate movie.. Aaargghh. $4 wasted. And its all bcoz of Fabi-Kun!!

To Wawa = Girlfrenz, cheer up ok. We find better ones. Dont worry.

Teaching Rena frm 7-9. So sians. Tomorow go Chinatown ok? Pirates of the Carribean 2 is coming!!

Reality Check!!

2004-01-04T16:03:00.000+08:00

Damn..Less than 12 hrs to the official reopening of a new semester..Back to school, back to the endless homework, heavy projects and mindless chatterings among fellow classmates. Did I miss them? Honestly, I only missed a few of them you know like Wawa, Veron, Nicholas and dont forget Eugene and Benjamin. haiz..It'll be their last semester and I wont be seeing them again..

Fiqa gave a quite a jolt yesterday when she said,"Oh my God..You will be 20 in less than 2 yrs time!" and I was like My God, am I really that old? I still cant believe that Im already 18 because I seriously do not feel my age. I will always be forever 16, i think. Im so not ready to take the big step to complete adulthood. More responsibilities and more problems. Damn damn damn..

Anyways, Im going to ask Wawa to watch Scary Movie 3 tomorrow if she wants to. Do you want to watch it girl?

A Newer Skin

2004-01-01T15:37:00.000+08:00

Yes...A new skin..You want to know why? Because the so-called designer of the previous design did not create the template. You know the cute air stewardess template I used only a couple of days ago? Turns out she's been stealing other people's templates or should I say Marina's template..So when the picture didna show, I tried going into Blogskins to download the template again and was shocked to hear the comments about her..So I went to the respective designer, the actual designer and was delighted to see many of her designs. They were downright awesome man!! So many to choose from. But this wasna my choice.. I actually wanted another skin but I guess being an elder sister has it bloody downs huh? She wanted that skin. irritating piece of flint!! So she took the bloody freaking design I wanted. Its okay i suppose because I know my template will be so much better..Though Im feeling pretty pissed off about my other sister. I really hate them. :< Damn!!

Mommy treats them as though they are like babies still. For goodness freaking sake they are 14 already! Old enough to do the housework right? No Mommy still says that they are still young and me as an elder sister should do this and that blah..blah..blah..Yeah whatever..Just because she got some back problems doesnt mean she cant do any housework right? How is she suppose to know what her body is capable of if you dont let her try? Im so freaking sick of this. So she's what a princess now? That doesnt make her any different you know. She old enough to know that she also has a share of the responsibilities required of us. ~~Sometimes I do wish that happen instead of this. I know Im being unreasonable but I do have feelings you know~~..Maybe Im being an ungrateful jerk but you know what? This is the new year. Im suppose to be happy and think of new year resolutions and ways to not to keep them. So, a new year and new possibilities I hope.

Happy new year everyone!! Hope your day was better..=)

New Layout

2003-12-29T12:46:00.000+08:00

Changing my skin for the New Year. Yes I know it's still in pink..Hehehe..
So wont be updating much except to edit my layout...So any comments on this one?

Bored And Lazy

2003-12-26T11:06:00.000+08:00

Im so lazy to update. Cant think of anything right now..So fellas, have patience ok.

Stick It To The MAN!!

2003-12-23T16:10:00.000+08:00

School of Rock is AMAZING!! Awesome!! Rock to the core!! Im not kidding. Its..the movie, no words can describe how the movie was. But let me tell you that it was one of the best movies Ive seen so far. Its like Pirates (POTC) only that you keep banging your head tot he ryhtm of the music. And the students..especially Freddie who plays the drums is so totally cute. A major heartbreaker when he grows up I promise you. Im giving it 5/5. Yup fullmarks no doubt about it. I want to see it again when it officially opens end of this month. I actually won 2 tickets for the exclusive preview of the movie and boy didnt I enjoy the movie. Its great. You'll enjoy it.

Actually I thought it will be lame because I dont like Jack Black (is that his name?) And I thought this is another movie that I would have to endure for 2 hours. But boy was I wrong. The humor wasnt clapstick nor lame unlike Dude Where's My Car? which I belive is a waste of fine brain power. No offence, I like Ashton. But DWMC is like ruining my intellligence. Every second of the movie(SOR) was amazing, funny, interesting and the climax was like Whoaa!! It wasn't draggy or anything like Elf and I never laughed so much in a cinema. Everyone's reactions in the full-packed cinema was instantaneous. We were clapping and hooting and those child actors are so natural. Im itching to watch Lord of The Ring The Return of The King. But Im not sure if Im watching it with Faby and crew. My sister is going to watch the movie again with her hubby. I wanna come too.

I actually spend a day in my sister's office because she was all alone in the office. She will be for 2 weeks. Haha. So out of pitiness, I agreed to come at 2 pm onstead of at 6 as agreed. Watched music videos all day long. Haiz. Can I come again on Friday? Puh-Leeezzee..

Must Watch Movies

2003-12-16T18:39:00.000+08:00

Okay. Here are the list of movies which I must go and watch next year. I have to watch these movies so my dear friends, be prepared to watse money ok? Haha

31/12/03 - School Of Rock

23/02/04 - Honey (starring Jessica Alba)

18/03/04 - Perfect Score

1/04/04 - Ned Kelly (starring Orlando Bloom *melts*)

21/05/04 - Shrek 2

TBA - Love Dont Cost A Thing (starring Christina Millian)

Cant wait for them movies. But I still want to watch Infernal Affairs 2 and 3. Love Actually was supposed to be watched with my sister. Im still waiting for you!!! if not, I'll watch the movie alone!!

Dum Da Da..

2003-12-16T11:27:00.000+08:00

Well actually I have nothing to blog about. Was surfing the NET for a new blogskin and I decided what the hell, just blog lah. Mama and Baba still not home yet. Mama send Baba to a clinic because he's complaining of some back pains. So she woke me up like at 8 this morning and said that I have to divivde the household chores to my other two sisters who are in fact still bumming around in the house somewhere

Anyway, yesterday was the online registration for my IS module. My timeslot was at 11 am while my other kakis were like at 5 pm. So I thought that I would sign up for it first and they will follow suit if theres any more seats available. For lifeskills, I chose business etiquette and for communications I chose to take basic conversational Japanese initially. So all was like in place because I was torn whether to take Japanese or Spanish. Then Veron called me and said she and Qinwei cant get into my Japanses class because (1) the class was full (2) Qinwei had took Japanese class last semester so she cant take Jap anymore. So they tol me that they were taking French. And I was like " Oh My God! Really? Then nobody's taking Jap with me?" So I wanted to change to French and I could only change my previous choices from 10 pm onwards later that night. I was anxious because I kow that Japanese language is very hard. I tried to learn Jap on my own and i dont know what the hell I was doing. So 10 pm came and yes you guessed it, their French class was full so I thought what the heck, just join the other French class. At least i can revise French with them. So I signed up for the French class. Then I found out that Qinwei will not be having any similar classes with me and her Business Etiqutte class starts at 3 pm(or was it at 1) while mine starts at 10 am. So we thought of changing the whole schedule over again. Mind you, almost all the classes are full. So I dropped my French class and and signed up for Spanish class instead. And Qinwei cant change it because even though she changed her language class, her business etiquette class will still start at 3. So while I changed only my language class, she changed her whole schedule. She signed up for 'I dont know what the thell thse are for' classes. You took social something right? So next year, I will be seperated from my girl. I will be so alone in my Spanish class. I regret changing my language class. I want to take Japanese and French too. All 3 language appeal to me. Aisey man..do you think I made a right choice? If Iw ere to take Japanese, I could like practise because I love watching Jap dorama. I had totally stopped watching Spanish dramas like 2 years ago. Even if I wanted to watch Spanish dramas, I dont have the time because the dramas are shown during the weekdays when I am still in school unlike Jap doramas at night. Sigh. French? Can watching Moulin Rouge be considered a French practise? Oh I get it!! I can practice French easily by practising French kissing!! Hahahaah!!! Ignore me. Im just bullshitting here.

Just blogging..

2003-12-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

Just dropped by to widh all fellow bloggers a nice warm nitey nitez. Hope you guys someone to cuddle to during this cold season. The new year is coming. Need to think of new resolutions and reasons not to keep it. Hah.
It's still hurting but im slowly recovering. I still get misty eyed and my heart shatters more pieces but Im moving on. The process is long and bleak but keep on smiling. It breaks my heart everytime.....

A Brand New Day

2003-12-13T16:48:00.000+08:00

Woke up this morning with a bit of smile on my face. A new day for new possibilities. A fresh start. Sunlight filtering into my room, brighting up my life, making me look at it in a new perspective. It feels like Ive finally woken up from a bad dream that had been dragged on for so long. Im feeling better. Happier in fact. Decided to move on to happier things that will bring new meanings. No reason to dwell on the past. Mistakes are made for us to learn more about ourselves. Learn form our mistakes. Take it positively. Felt like a great burden had been, how do I put it, 'erased' from my chest. Finding it easier to breathe now that I'd let it out (though woke up with a runny and stuffy nose). Let nature take its course. We'll see what happens. Take it slowly, step by step. I keep reminding myself to smile and think positive. Everything happens for a reason and though I still dont know what the hell the reason is, Im still thankful that I can still smile and still find joy in every little thing that life and God gave me.

So, all I have to do is change for the better. Im still trying to do that. I need a new drive, new everything. All that had happened, Im going to leave it. No more of that dark path. Im going to forget it all. Though it hurts from time to time, I know I'll live through it. Smiling is not hard. Keep reminding yourself all is not lost. You know you can survive,(why do I hear the Survivor song from Destiny's Child starting to play itself in my mind?) All you have to do is to believe in yourself that you can make it. No more drama.

Vacuumed the house. Ate a really big breakfast of lontong with my mummy's lodeh, seronding and smabal. Yum yum..So I took a really long shower, in fact I sang some songs too. Its been a while since I did that. Trimmed my fingernails which had grown too long. Its been like what, 2 months since I trimmed it. Its a shame but Im tired of scratching myself painfully. The longest growth is 0.85 cm courtesy of my fourth finger of my right hand. Trimmed my fringe too. Wish I could trim of these unnecessary fat around my hips. ;P. Watched a korean movie, Marrying The Mafia..Had a great laugh. Was supposed to go out with my primary schools friends but it was raining and the boys were lazy to brave the rain. So tomorrow lah I think. But will not be telling Baya about tomorrow..Naughty naughty. So this turning point in my life was turning out to be wonderful. Looking forward to tomorrow.

Keep on Moving
I woke up today with this feeling
That better things are coming my way (way)
And if the sunshine has a meaning
Telling me not to let things get in my way

When the rainy days are dying
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying (ahh ahh ahh)
Never let go, gotta hold on in
Non-stop 'til the break of dawnin'
Keep on movin' don't stop rockin' (ahh ahh ahh)

Get on up when you're down
Baby, take a good look around
I know it's not much, but it's okay
Keep on moving anyway

Feels like I should be screaming
Trying to get it through to my friends
Sometimes it feels that life has no meaning
But I know things will be alright in the end

When the rainy days are dying
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying (ahh ahh ahh)
Never let go, gotta hold on in
Non-stop 'til the break of dawnin'
Keep on movin' don't stop rockin' (ahh ahh ahh)

Get on up when you're down
Baby, take a good look around
I know it's not much, but it's okay
Keep on moving anyway

When the rainy days are dying
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying (ahh ahh ahh)
Never let go, gotta hold on in
Non-stop 'til the break of dawnin'
Keep on movin' don't stop rockin' (ahh ahh ahh)

Get on up when you're down
Baby, take a good look around
I know it's not much, but it's okay
Keep on moving anyway

Get on up when you're down
Baby, take a good look around
I know it's not much, but it's okay
Keep on moving anyway

When the rainy days are dying
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying (ahh ahh ahh)
Never let go, gotta hold on in
Non-stop 'til the break of dawnin'
Keep on movin' don't stop rockin' (ahh ahh ahh)

Get on up when you're down
Baby, take a good look around
I know it's not much, but it's okay
Keep on moving anyway

Get on up when you're down
Baby, take a good look around
I know it's not much, but it's okay
Keep on moving anyway..

© Keep On Moving by 5ive

What am I?

2003-12-12T21:49:00.000+08:00

Heh..Saw two persons who I never thought I would meet. Firstly was Hafiz. He wore a purple baju kurung and pink slippers. he looked so surprised to see me. My friend said he was cute..O_0

Then saw Arib. He was walking towards the interchange and I was going inside the shopping center and I said,"Arib!" he turned and looked happy to see me. Or was it my imagination. He looked different. Thinner. He's already so thin so when I say thinner, I mean thinner.

Few more things Ive discovered about you guys..Stop telling me all those lies. Stop making me feel as though I have to choose. I dont know who is right and whos wrong here so dont make me choose. Stop feeding me uselss information which will cause me nothing but more heartaches. I tried to feel indifferent but you guys dont make it easy. Stop pulling me into the middle. Ive told you before Im not going to be involved yet you guys let my pleas go unheeded. Im so tired of this game which I know will not end. Stop trying to justify what you did. Youve caused me to lose more than I had gained. You made use of my sympathy, my 'generosity' and turned all my thoughts and emotions upside down. Stop it really. Im trying to change here but everytime I hear all this stories and you expect me to believe them. My head is fulled to the brim with my own problems and you just have to add to it. I cant take it anymore. You made me think not with my head but on my emotions, causing hurt to others, whom I loved. But all is gone. theres no turning back now. Will I even be missed when Im gone? Will you be there holding my hand when I need it? I had never asked anyone to be there, catching me when I fall so Im asking for the first time to stop turning me into someone Im not. I still need to be me.

Feel like letting all inside me out. I just want it to end. The pressure is building. Im reaching my limit

I am missing you. Hope you are doing fine. Take care..